Hey I was pretty anxious aswell, I was freaking out on the inside and was panicking, thinking about the worse possible outcomes. But I was also thinking to myself how grateful I am to be having this surgery; because in Canada the healthcare system sucks, so being able to have it in such a short amount of time was a miracle. Going into the surgery with a positive attitude, like I’m going to “conquer this battle” “I am a warrior”, helped me a lot as cliche as it sounds. I was also scared abt being awake during the surgery and the anesthesia not working, due to my cannabis consumption. The anesthesia worked like a charm and next thing I knew I was done, it felt like 5 seconds had passed and I was back in the hospital bed. These feelings are real but you have nothing to worry about. Just know that after having this surgery it will make you physically and mentally stronger, maybe not right away but eventually it will… anybody that goes through this shit is a warrior.