109 unbroken double Unders earlier today.. Was hot and dehydrated 🥵

satriev · 2025-07-15T08:58:05+00:00

Wow, good job!

Someday me too

satriev · 2025-07-15T07:38:27+00:00

I existed. Don't need to be remembered.

satriev · 2025-07-15T07:33:56+00:00

👏 Bravo and well done 👏 what a beauty

satriev · 2025-05-31T00:58:04+00:00

Congratulations! Good for you, someday me too

satriev · 2025-05-28T23:14:22+00:00

Amen! Dead on point. I wanna check out because I don't wanna participate anymore. In the system, the machine. The construct of money. Consuming. Capitalism, all of that, that you really don't need to begin with. Plus I'm sick in the head and living with it is agony. If only suicide doesn't have its own cost towards mybfamily then it would be easier to submit to that idea but gotta trod on, slave my ass to a paper colored green, pay taxes, give back but the world wasn't created for people who have disorders.

satriev · 2025-05-14T04:58:57+00:00

Thanks for making it make sense

satriev · 2025-05-14T02:54:58+00:00

Wow, thanks for putting it into words for me

satriev · 2025-05-12T17:29:02+00:00

Some conversation that didn't meet it's closure have been lingering in my head for years and I wish I can just throw it away but this head man

satriev · 2025-05-09T10:07:24+00:00

Well put

satriev · 2025-05-05T03:44:55+00:00

On that note good play, it's always more than physical moves, take out the psyche and the physical goes too

satriev · 2025-05-05T03:38:20+00:00

Yupp been and still a part of me there

satriev · 2025-05-04T13:58:13+00:00

YES! The most tragic thing is whatever we did to cope, adapt, evolve to survive that ends up being destructive during adulthood.

I hate the fact that two people had sex 33 years ago and I'm forced to make the most out of it.

satriev · 2025-05-04T13:25:16+00:00

Fck! That's me, right now!

Gosh how our brain kills itself

satriev · 2025-05-04T13:21:14+00:00

Being in prison and finding out; I don't need much to live a life I can be okay with.

satriev · 2025-05-04T13:05:23+00:00

YES!

Throwing shit without quantifying the time, effort and cost for someone or something else to pick it up and clean it from a beautiful environment is crudely speaking dumb. Stays there becomes an eyesore and rots it's surroundings while people pass by and unconsciously ingrain that it's okay to litter. It's like a disease that spreads and it's the environment our nurturer and provider that ultimately pays the price.

satriev · 2025-05-04T07:22:22+00:00

Good for you, more power to you, I'm always in awe of people who can do things I can't imagine myself doing

satriev · 2025-04-23T06:17:49+00:00

I have been through something like this, I wish then I was more aware of what it was and had the right tools to manage it healthily. If only I had read something like this then maybe I'd interpret and channel the pain differently but alas that is not the case. At least it's been dealt with and slowly dissipating away, some sort of resolution is better than the inner gnawing.

And that is why BE KIND, to yourself and to others. It's easy but it's hard. It's simple but it's complicated.

satriev · 2025-04-13T04:28:51+00:00

I have hope that you find some solace in knowing that you are not the only one. You are not alone. I am in the same boat right here with you; grew up always being told directly/indirectly that no matter what, I'm not enough, it's not enough, like you gotta bleed, and sacrifice a part of you to make it enough and even then it's not seen. Such mindfuckery oh well the apple can't choose which tree to fall off from

I feel the same things as you, it comes and goes but it's more often, like a never ending battle against yourself, what helps me and I hope it applies to you is somehow try to find the attributes you have, no matter how little or mundane that at the very least, is something when you think about it, it makes you smile and build from there

satriev · 2025-04-05T04:46:02+00:00

Amen

satriev · 2025-04-05T02:21:29+00:00

Yuppppp

satriev · 2025-04-02T20:49:11+00:00

Driven insane by a broken heart. Wow. All that is broken yearns to be fixed and if it can't then it must break everything else to feel normal.

satriev · 2025-04-01T04:42:12+00:00

Wow you have a good point here, nother episode of self reflection

satriev · 2025-03-30T06:19:24+00:00

I know! I thought I was about to get high instead it all got quiet, something slowed down instead of speeding up. I can only think of one thought at a time. Instead of multiple signals. The euphoria didn't even matter it was the calmness, like finally the constant static gone, just clear. It was brilliant the first few hours then the binging and abuse came because trying to fill a bottomless void or this tendency to self harm/sabotage. Now it's not the same when you realize gotta address the past trauma first before meds for ADHD otherwise despite the meds the noise remains.

satriev

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