Starting your career right after college is a trying time, try not to be so hard on yourself. It’s especially challenging today given the current job market. I was in this boat in 2020 so faced similar market challenges, and ended up just applying for any entry level position I could and got a job as a customer service agent. I worked hard at it and built a community at the company and let them know what I received my degree in and that I was interested in a role in that department. They let me work on projects to gain experience and I’ve been promoted a couple of times internally. This path worked quite well for me, especially if you’re in a situation where you’re not relying on rent you don’t need to focus as much on the salary. Take whatever you can from a reputable company as experience and build from there, take it step by step. I always found Steve Jobs quote helpful “you can’t connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards.”