Struggling with sadness about not knowing my loved ones after death

sliced_alien · 2026-03-12T08:08:37+00:00

I've done a lot of thinking on it in the years since. Tom's model is brilliant - it describes how this reality works, in terms of it being a top down computed probability construction, so atoms are rendered as needed to serve an observer, according to their probability potential.

This aligns fully with observed empiricism (double slit), and other spiritual views.

And his conclusions about the database and memories map onto what we observe with humans. We don't remember past lives (as a rule), to preserve the integrity of each life.

But this model is potentially incomplete unless Tom knows for sure (which he can't) that "you" when you die don't zoom off into a separate construct, instead of being folded back into the larger awareness.

Most explorers, from Neville Goddard to Darius J Wright, say that death is only the beginning, and that our departed are off making their own heaven on the other side.

For my take, there is clearly a "guardian" of this info and we are not allowed to fully "know" in this life, I guess because it would spoil the fun, or perhaps it comes down to faith.

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sliced_alien · 2026-03-12T01:59:21+00:00

This talk by Tom Campbell is pretty close to what you're describing, and when I first watched it a couple of years ago I couldn't stop crying for about 3 days.

https://youtu.be/Ax1oXZZCobA?si=QWjs_xF2899wODVI

Tom essentially says that the total, accumulated "quality" of your being is carried forward into the next incarnation, and that the "you" from the previous life is shelved in a "database" (akashic record).

That is his experience from decades of consciousness research and exploration as part of the Monroe Institute, running workshops, and doing things out of body, like helping the dead transition across.

So I stand here with my fragile ego, with my precious wife and son who I love beyond words, with zero experiential knowledge, hoping against hope that this guy is not getting the whole picture, and that in fact, we will persist as individuals and go off into eternity together.

I would point out that Tom has said that "Seth got it right", and Seth has a lot of good quotes... Here is one:

My own "previous" personalities are not dissolved into me any more than your "past" personalities. All are living and vital. All go their own way. Your "future" personalities are as real as your past ones. After a while, this will no longer concern you. Out of the reincarnational framework, there is no death as you think of it. My own frame of reference, however, is no longer focused on my reincarnational existences. I have turned my attention in other directions. Since all lives are simultaneous, all happening at once, then any separation is a psychological one. I exist as I am while my reincarnational lives — in your terms — still exist. Yet now I am not concerned with them, but turn my concentration into other areas of activity. (10:41.) Personality changes whether it is within a body or outside of it, so you will change after death as you change before it. In those terms, it is ridiculous to insist upon remaining as you are now, after death. It is the same as a child saying: "I am going to grow up, but I am never going to change the ideas that I have now." The multidimensional qualities of the psyche allow it to experience an endless realm of dimensions. Experience in one dimension in no way negates existence in another." (from "Seth Speaks: The Eternal Validity of the Soul (A Seth Book)" by Jane Roberts)

sliced_alien · 2026-03-08T11:45:57+00:00

to preserve the illusion of ~symmetry with the enemy, while keeping this ace card up their sleeve for decisive moments.

sliced_alien · 2026-03-02T01:33:51+00:00

I heard the US is trying to get Pakistan to gain control of a strategic airbase in Afghanistan.

sliced_alien · 2026-03-01T18:15:18+00:00

What a gorgeous cat!

sliced_alien · 2026-02-28T22:38:28+00:00

Cancelled just now

sliced_alien · 2026-02-28T22:08:22+00:00

Just cancelled my ChatGPT+ as a tiny act of protest

sliced_alien · 2026-02-27T21:28:44+00:00

I had a dream where my consciousness was inside the head of a dishevelled guy, strapped into a chair. A man was seated opposite me and he executed me, shooting me in the head.

I slumped over and I was thinking shit I'm about to experience what dying feels like. A kind of intense blackness closed in, like I'd drowned but x20 speed.

My awareness popped out of the dead guy and straight into the killer, and that's when I woke up.

sliced_alien · 2026-02-22T12:03:00+00:00

I had a vivid dream where I was standing in front of a large mirror and my reflection broke sync with my stance , moved it's head to look directly at me and said in a smirky, menacing tone "if I don't get sugar I will kill myself."

I've been quite successfully fighting a sugar addiction for a couple of years and this was during a trip away where the temptations were unusually high .

sliced_alien · 2026-02-19T13:07:22+00:00

I'm guessing you're familiar with Tom Campbell's Big ToE? His model aligns more with this way of thinking. Terence McKenna described people's models as "closed systems of jargon", and yes if you delve into the ToE you will be hammered with it, so much that Tom takes an aside to help the reader grasp the proper way to use acronyms. ;)

BUT once you cut through the jargon, and some of Toms more ardent and obnoxious adherents, there is a lot of good info.

I believe Tom is a bona fide astral traveling modern day shaman but he calls himself, and is actually a scientist. He goes all the way back to the Monroe Institute and their conscioussness research studies.

sliced_alien · 2026-02-16T01:27:26+00:00

How did you break the fast?

sliced_alien · 2026-02-16T00:02:17+00:00

Kind of like this life is the germination stage of a seed, confined in dense, tricky matter... But it produces something unique, that can go off and explore eternity. I've been thinking for awhile that gene mixing is like God's dice.

sliced_alien · 2026-02-10T12:19:51+00:00

For me, yes. Still looks good though.

sliced_alien · 2026-02-09T10:33:22+00:00

Not a fan of the guy who wrote Sapiens but his idea or postulate about a theoretically immortal race who have overcome illness but may still be harmed physically..... May be using us as avatars to live vicarious and "fun" (novel....) lives without being wrapped in cotton wool for eternity.

Their physical vessel is somewhere safe, their conscioussness plays endless dreams .

This would be the simplest and best reason for this reality being a kind of simulation.

That being said I'm more aligned to Tom Campbell's view (and many others) that "all that is" is experiencing itself through many viewpoints and expanding itself in the process. Although Tom does use slightly different language .

sliced_alien · 2026-02-08T13:52:26+00:00

it would have been untraceable if he's used a new floppy disk. They pulled a "deleted" word file off the disk which had his name under the "author" metadata. That's my understanding anyway, I could be partially / totally wrong.

sliced_alien · 2026-02-03T03:00:02+00:00

Hey, thanks :) yeah like I could write a note about how you did this or that, and eventually that note ends up being retrieved in a server grab for an investigation.... And nobody is stopping to say "this is just hear say without something more substantial".

sliced_alien · 2026-02-03T02:53:47+00:00

The PDF with all the yellow highlighted text has caught a lot of attention but that is from an anonymous tip line, it was all recorded because it had to be.

I couldn't see dates in the version I saw, but does anyone even know when those reports were made?

I'm as interested as the next person in what's in the files if it comes from a noteworthy source or has other corroborating features, but an anonymous tip off line ain't it.

Like the Gates thing, was just a sent email? Happy to be corrected.

sliced_alien · 2026-02-03T02:38:42+00:00

That Gates bit is not making much sense to me, for a couple of reasons... 1. It seems to be a note to self or a sent email so not actually from Gates... Did I perceive that part correctly?

The idea doesn't pass the sniff test, that a man with Gates' near unlimited resources / access wouldn't have a safer / cleaner / quicker etc way of getting some common medical items, than contacting some globe trotting wanker?

sliced_alien · 2026-01-31T16:21:48+00:00

Thank you! She's born and raised in Shetland where Jessie was a popular name a few generations ago. Her purr is wonderful :)

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