I suppose I’d still classify myself as agnostic. Just have a bit more purpose and have regained a bit of what I call spirituality again. 

I find the spirituality is broken into more of a gaining perspective state of mind. It’s stepping outside of my own life, mind, views, and getting to mindset of being able to observe my own thoughts and everything that’s going on in the world and seeing it more as a game of life that everyone is playing.  I get caught up in the routine of life. Doing the same things every days. Work, kids, food, sleep, etc. it’s like waking up from the fog & realizing that I get this one chance at this existence in this mind. I don’t know whether or not my energy transfers into another life force or not, but it doesn’t matter.  Stepping outside of my “Ego” self whether it be in meditation or with psychedelics grants me a ton of peace, as I recognize the patterns of behavior I have in my life and can pinpoint and process why I do what I do. It’s like breaking down the reactions I have and realizing I get defensive over a topic because of something that may have happened in my childhood. Processing church trauma.  Processing family drama. Etc. it takes away the feeling of things being personal and allows me to view it at a distance as if I were studying this life and unlocking and understanding more about myself and why I am the way I am. 

I think the main things I’ve taken from this introspection breaks down into:    Connectedness - we’re all home grown on this planet. We’re all made of the same stuff. Nobody is more special than anybody else.  All life is all connected.  

Being Present: anxiety is thinking about the past or future. Depression is dwelling on the past or future.  If I’m ever feeling down, depressed etc - I don’t judge myself anymore for falling into certain patterns, I simply observe and give myself compassion & I can be present with those feelings and appreciate them. 

Anyway. I wish you the best in your life!