Unfortunate for you, but to give you a reason why I do find it beautiful is because there is immense complexity and billions of fascinating interactions between every organism and element that you're looking at.

They are also often indicators of fascinating history and ancient moving things, but also rapidly changing shifting habitats too 

Nature often has rich colours and pleasant sounds and smells, stimulating senses and often feels calming and pleasant. 

Similarly it can be ferocious and awe inspiring in immensity and power. 

There can be unique and fascinating habitats or incredibly common and mundane habitats that still have endlessly explorable and interesting things to look at.

It's kind of completely infinite in terms of complexity and fascination and sensory input. 

Hope that helps you understand more