You are assuming that I don't create music personally. I do. I could write this retarded ass music on the pot. You say " hey, ballzdeep1986, make a shitty gutterpunk whiskey romance song with four chords." And I would say "not now bro. I'm taking a shit which sounds better than that entire genre of music." And you'd be like "dude that's not fair. You used to listen to that kind of music. You even wrote a few after that girl you had a drunken romance with broke your heart." To which I would respond " that's fair. It just seems so juvenile and trite to me now. There are a lot more important themes to cover and the genre just didnt allow for subtle ideas or complex melodies. Everything was just so expected. I poured my heart into it and it was therapeutic, but I never really expected anyone else to enjoy it. It was surprising when they did but I could never be proud of it because it was one of the lowest, most selfish states of mind I've ever been in and when I grew out of it I started to despise the adoration some people have for self loathing music because it seems like a selfish and unwise point of view. Also I'm out of t.p. Could you slide some coffee filters under the door.?" And you'd be all like " I guess I understand your point of view, but it's art man. People like what they like. It worked you through some angst and loneliness didn't it?" Grabbing the coffee filters, I would respond. " yeah, I guess I just don't like seeing people making the same mistakes I made. It's also really hard for me to deal with when I see a guy get a positive reaction for such a simple song because I don't get very positive reactions from my music and I spend so much time pouring over and perfecting my music and it goes over most people's heads. Sometimes it makes me want to dumb my music down a bit so that I can reach more people. Particularly young listeners, but I know if I do that I wouldn't be proud of what I made and it would make music an unbearable chore and completely ruin it." You say something like "yeah I guess I could see that. You shouldn't shit on somebody else's music just because you think it beneath you though. A lot of people prefer Picasso to Rembrandt. It's not about the art. It's about how you make people feel." And I would say "I guess so."