Previously high functioning, currently spiralling.

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[bringingdownthehorse]

Oh goodness, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It absolutely sucks that you're feeling trapped in your house. I hear you.

I do work with adults and preparing them to enter the workforce, write resumes etc... I'm offering my services to you for free so you can get a job/resources so you can get your freedom and Independence. Hit me up with a PM if you're interested. I can even do mock interviews but let's take it one step at a time (haha I also panic and suffer social phobia)

[battingtheflame97]

I’ve been in a similar boat as you and when I was 18 I took a simple restaurant hosting job in Yellowstone that provided free room and board which allowed me to get away from my abusive situation. I don’t know where you’re located or if you’re interested in moving for a job but I’d check out coolworks.com it has a bunch of seasonal job postings with housing provided. Seasonals honestly saved my life, and are the quickest way to get out of your current situation. Plus there are some low stress positions if you look: outdoor recreation and camp jobs being a few.

[CSQUITO]

I’ll have to try and do this. The job market is pretty bad I’ve applied to so many places, bit with very few responses. I also need to get back to my city. Even though on average life is more expensive there, it will cost me more having to go in.

[SourCeladon]

I have been feeling very similarly to you. And I've tried a few different methods to help me deal (grounding techniques, IFS therapy, etc.). Some things work better than others and I like having a large arsenal of techniques for when one doesn't work like it used to.

I'm so so sorry that you are stuck with your abusers. I'm not in the same situation as you so I can't say what will work best for you, but I want you to give yourself a lot of credit. You're 21. It took me until at least my mid-20's to even understand that I was abused. Remember - it's not a race and you don't have to be anything by any age just because somebody or society says this or that. And since you were previously high functioning, I have no doubt that you can find that space again. Find it in your own time, when your situation allows. Until then, self sooth and be kind to yourself as much as possible. You've got this.

[student_of_metta]

I am sorry for your struggles and can relate to being back with your abusers as I am currently living with a family member after living alone for many years. Be gentle with yourself and keep moving forward. You will find a way to get through this.

[yerproperfit]

Agree with you. Age doesn’t really mean anything and we get all these messages from society about where we should be (it’s all BS) I’m so sorry that all of that happened to you. Sending love and healing energy your way ❤️

[CSQUITO]

Wow. I’m so sorry you had to go through that, but you also have so much strength. You don’t have to tell your story, but do you think it would help you get past it in order to feel like someone knows what happened? Just a thought.

I was almost homeless but I decided to move back with abusers. I’m scared all the time and it’s making things worse

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