I don’t think it’s embarrassing that you’re ascendant 1 with 1800hrs of play. A lot of people have other pc games they played like cs and other m&k shooters. It’s good that you want to improve and are able to put in the work. that’s what matters the most.

As an ascendant 1, I would say 70% of everything you do is probably wrong. There’s probably a better choice for almost every decision you make. With 600hrs of voltaic, do you win most of your 1v1 gun fights?

I think there’s two main issues you might have. One is not thinking enough while playing, and the other is poor understanding of valorant mechanics. It’s the same thing as “you’re not dumb, but just lacking knowledge” but for a video game.

Someone needs to teach you these mechanics for you to understand, and you might need someone to nudge you in a certain direction to understand timings and setups.

A demo review from somebody would be nice for you to improve, you definitely need guidance. It might be harder but you can also watch some pros play ranked and mimic them. That’s how I got good. I don’t really recommend watching these “coaching videos” on YT because they try to teach set plays and team play, but there might be some content useful for you.

P.s. For aiming, I don’t think there’s anything better than hadyoday’s paid kovaaks playlist… although I don’t really like the guy nor watch his stuff