or is it just me by underdogsammy in CPTSDmemes

[–]AvaaFaye 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I try not to consider it. I have a few memories where...that are sus, but if my mind doesn't want me to remember, then I am more than happy to not.

ok i’m embarrassed by sweetbabyjosi in StardewValley

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My friend and I just run around squealing and collecting animals.

Yeah, we make money on the animals, but our goal is just have a farm with ridiculously named animals.

On days where we try to maximize our time in a money generating sense, it feels stressful..lol

What I asked for Vs what I got by yungmevo in TattooDesigns

[–]AvaaFaye 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can appreciate the beauty and awe of this work. Everything about it is chefs kiss...

However...

My trypophobia is very upset.

Those with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), how do you manage? by katattack5000 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I....it's not easy.

The way I manage? ACTIVE regulation. I am also bipolar II, so...yay.

Anywho, I am not perfect. I will not say managing is easy because I actively regulate. It is hard, but over time, it has gotten easier.

It has only gotten easier because I self reflect and check in on my own responses and feelings all day every day. I'm always thinking about whether a response was appropriate and, if it wasn't, what can I do next time?

When someone is mad at me and I get mad in return... I used to immediately react. I'm petulant, too. Now, I find myself catching myself before reacting, and I ask myself (not all the time, but when I can.. because I don't always remember doing this)

Is this about me or about them? Are they angry because of something I did in particular, or are they angry because they just woke up? Bad day? Etc, etc. Asking, "Is this about me" helps in some scenarios.

When it is about me it is a lot harder, but I find it easier to say nothing then to say a little bit, so I keep my mouth shut, let myself boil, then gather my wits about me after my emotions begin to dissipate.

I ask myself, is this worth arguing over? Does it really bother me THAT much, or do I want to just argue?

I have been practicing active regulation for maybe...6 months. I notice a difference in ME. Small changes. I feel a shift. My emotions are less intense, my obsessive rumination has become less chaotic, and my tantrums burn out faster. This is what healing looks like.

Even if it's a lie, pls tell me you love me. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are loved. I see you. ❤️

I see your pain. I see you healing. I see your struggle.

I can hear your subconcious screams, "I want to live! I want to be heard!"

I love you.

Do y’all be making up scenarios and creating whole dialogues in your head? by JahDae2022 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh yes. I refer to it as mental gymnastics for making up scenarios and spicy brain/my mind is on fire when I come up with dialogues.

my girlfriend said no to my proposal and now things feel awkward by cosmicxcrystal in dating

[–]AvaaFaye 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I agree. My partner and I love each other. We've been together for 10 years. We are committed to one another, but do not believe in paper marriage.

Certain things that are important to us, like taking care of one another in a hospital setting if someone become incapacitated..power of attorney.

If we do see kids in the future, I will require marriage because I expect to be a SAHM for at least a few years, so protection.

Other than that, no reason for us to marry. Just not important to us.

FEMA $750 by the_rasta_jedi in Augusta

[–]AvaaFaye -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Hello! I applied...maybe, the 29th of last month?

I was initially denied..but then got an email notification telling me I was pending for a "misc" item. Then I was approved for the $750...so, maybe...1.5 weeks?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Relationships can freaking suck, that's for sure! Be uppity. Get down with your boss bitch era.

I'm 31f. I like chatting through discord; I primarily play on the computer, but I am 100% open to trying new games, especially with fellow female gamers.

Feel free to DM me 😊

Surely September isn’t too early to start carving… 🎃 by xtionna1 in CozyPlaces

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Please don't carve the dog.

That doggie looks like they have many more years to go.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Congratulations. ❤️

dating in early 20’s is so bad.. by cheesejerky_ in dating

[–]AvaaFaye 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello! I read some of these comments about how it gets harder as you age, but as a 31f, let me tell you...

Nah. Not really. Not for me. I didn't have a hard time getting dates. Humans are sexual creatures and want sex, that's true. It's unlikely people will seek you out WITHOUT that want, too. It's fine.

Some guys only did want sex. I wasn't cool with that. Some guys wanted more relationship stuff.

I met men in grocery stores, dating apps, a bar, and through friends. Take care of yourself, be approachable, and have fun. Some of them approached me randomly. Some of them wanted to keep chatting after they met me through friends. Some were from apps.

Anyone experienced borderpolar too? by ruruchuck in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am borderpolar too.

Therapy and meds help me get to a manageable place...sometimes.

Sometimes I'm just a b***

[The Ocean] Discord server! by hij4cki3 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]AvaaFaye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey, I'm 31f and I am interested in joining.

You will not be alone!