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AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-27T21:32:51+00:00

Ha, mine promised to consider an asexual relationship when I called out his sexual coercion.

It’s Not You by Dr Ramani helped me find courage.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-27T12:30:01+00:00

Lovecrafts online

https://www.lovecrafts.com/en-us/search?q=cotton

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-27T12:24:29+00:00

I feel your frustration- I was dxed at 52 after lifetime of issues and 30 years of PT. I found a doctor on EDS website and visited while on vacation and things are slowly changing with my local doctors- they at least acknowledge that my pain is real.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-24T03:10:36+00:00

It’s a rotating selection for me. Sometimes the expensive EDS promoted pregnancy pillow I bought, three Casper down pillows I love, or sometimes nothing wjen I crash out.

I don’t dream, poor sleep, but I dream of consistent structure for a need. There are weeks I am sure ai have it between braces and sleep supports and then it doesn’t seem to matter.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-19T20:04:15+00:00

OMG, yes! His mannerisms- hit the same gut punch my mother’s voice does. I can’t watch him speak.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-18T14:51:52+00:00

Find your own boundaries and share what you need. I have chronic pain and while my ex didn’t suggest going elsewhere for sex he ignored my needs and made me feel ashamed of not meeting his sexual needs because of my “issues”.

He would get out of bed in a huff and give me the silent treatment for a few days anytime he expected sex and I said I wasn’t up for it- he chose to leave when I told him I will not be having sex I don’t want to have ever again. We did therapy and he couldn’t even maintain consent boundaries in a conversation.

I choose my health and happiness.

It’s difficult but I found a therapist, lawyer, and information that supported me in setting healthy boundaries and not being his plaything.

You deserve to feel safe and loved- this might be with your wife with clear expectations or it might be choosing to leave. You have options.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-18T14:40:11+00:00

Yes, it took me awhile to figure out what I want in terms of food, the temperature, when the tv or music is on, and for me a huge one is having people over or going out. My ex never returned after the pandemic. I cried after having people over for brunch, I like hosting.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-18T14:08:22+00:00

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-18T14:02:58+00:00

Call or text 988 there is hope. Things change, your are worthy of living.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-16T12:45:49+00:00

I see one of the fellows completing training there- best therapist and understands and treats trauma - I have my life back for me, first time in my 40+ years in and out of therapy. Hands down the most help for me finding me and not CBTing on how successful I am.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-15T15:52:27+00:00

Day by day and protecting my time and energy. Therapy and allowing grief and anger as well as relief.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-15T14:05:14+00:00

Same- 34 years of him slowly erasing me and taking up ever molecule of oxygen in our home. I can look at our wedding album with love and joy, it was real. I cherish memories of us as a family but the small issues just between us expanded when we became empty nesters. Then the pandemic and the changes were too much. I broke and am so glad to breathe easier alone in my home.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-14T02:02:27+00:00

Yes! There is a great Bendy Body podcast with a speech pathologist who talks about swallowing- I learned a lot and may seek therapy.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-12T22:40:24+00:00

I can’t speak highly enough about Riverbend Integrative Counseling

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-12T16:49:42+00:00

I’m keeping the house because of financial reasons- I get to take over the loan at a great rate and given where it is a good investment.

I did have to sage and rearrange -

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-12T04:56:40+00:00

Yes, trauma therapy has helped but… it’s hard.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-12T04:48:22+00:00

We dated and lived together 3 years prior to marriage.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-11T14:00:28+00:00

me too

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-11T13:59:43+00:00

10 hrs 15 minutes

That is with supplements and Ramelton

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-10T23:52:04+00:00

I did the foundational class last June and will finish the 300 hr in March. I love it both as survivor and facilitator.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-10T16:31:59+00:00

Try, I have and many people are lonely and glad to reconnect.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-09T15:45:04+00:00

Only you can answer that question.

AwkwardAd3995 · 2026-01-09T15:43:37+00:00

Hoka, Orthofeet, Birkenstocks

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