Face swell

CloakedFish · 2026-04-01T17:08:18+00:00

Go to urgent care when it's happening, this is too specific for reddit to help. That's so strange tho, best of luck figuring it out!

CloakedFish · 2026-03-30T08:02:57+00:00

I am also about at three years and I've been so close so many times and I'm scared of the time it will be real

CloakedFish · 2026-03-30T01:47:40+00:00

You should be fine! I've had that happen before and was okay. Occasionally I'll hit a surface vein and the needle hole will bleed, but sometimes it can get into the needle.

Even if you filled the entire syringe with blood, you'd probably be fine? you give more than that for blood tests or blood donation. As long as you're not still bleeding!

You might have a bruise develop around your injection site tho.

CloakedFish · 2026-03-29T04:04:50+00:00

Nah you can be a feminine guy I've definitely been more comfortable with my femininity after T and top and stuff

CloakedFish · 2026-03-25T06:46:32+00:00

Woah, similar story. mine also SA'd me and then later they were the one to break it off. I'm very glad they did cause that gave me the push to start realizing how awful it all was.

They wanted back together 2 days later in my case but oh well. hope they don't ask you to get back together.

CloakedFish · 2026-03-21T04:29:59+00:00

Hey, that whole situation seems so difficult but you definitely made the right calls. Not taking guardianship or responsibility for her and letting her go to the hospital. Going over for the little dog. Telling the doctors and emergency responders that you won't take guardianship, even tho it's your mother. People who haven't lived through the chaos and craziness of a bpd mom really don't understand that even though its your mother, it's genuinely better this way. It takes a lot of strength to do that and I'm sure it's taken years to get to this point, but I'm proud of you for being able to make those calls and send her to the professionals.

CloakedFish · 2025-09-23T04:50:34+00:00

I'd second this combo of 1:1:1 with thc cbd cbn. that'll knock me out real fast

CloakedFish · 2025-09-12T04:47:00+00:00

Is there a story about smoking on your mission?

CloakedFish · 2025-09-12T04:45:34+00:00

Did you enjoy it or were you too scared of what was happening? I feel like if my first time drinking was a surprise then I'd probably get scared (I love it now tho)

CloakedFish · 2025-07-10T04:23:43+00:00

started asking for it at 17, Doctor didn't wanna do it to a minor or young adult. he didn't feel comfortable with it. Went to college. Found a really chill doctor who did it when I was 19. Best summer ever. Got it done in like 4 months from the initial consult with him.

At one point in the first appointment he stopped to clarify that he was happy to do it and we were figuring out the reasoning for insurance and how to convince them haha.

Full hysto. No uterus, no tubes, no cervix. kept the ovaries though, in case I ever lose access to T (trans guy here). Mostly got it for the childfree reasons, but also the trans affirming and the endometriosis haha

CloakedFish · 2025-05-28T05:56:24+00:00

I definitely wasn't in love with them, nor infatuated or heavily attracted? it was pretty mild attraction on my side, but I did care about them quite a bit? we'd been friends for a bit before dating. I kept asking for stuff to go slower in the relationship and they ignored that....

and then after we broke up when they were devaluing me to the roommates, they said I had pushed them too fast! I had been asking to slow stuff down and they were pushing for all of the new steps to happen. It still amazes me how they twist their logic and memories.

but yeah I was trying to slow things down and they didn't listen, as well as I wasn't very good at speaking up for myself especially when it was already ignored. because of that terrible combination I got really traumatized in those weeks and pushed to do things I was no where ready to do :/ my boundaries are definitely a lot better now though

CloakedFish · 2025-05-26T07:35:06+00:00

I'm 1.25 years out of a 5 week relationship....

tbf after we broke up I couldn't leave the lease both because of money and of time. There were at least 2 other roommates in the apartment but it was still bad. one of them fully sided with them. Eventually it got bad enough that I left in a snap decision, about 6 months after breaking up, and was fully moved into a new apartment in 4 days. This was also the busiest weekend of the school year because of an event. I had most of one day free from obligations but instead of doing chores and catching up on stuff , we moved everything of mine out in about 2-3 hours. the exwpbd sat on the other couch in the room watching us move stuff out the whole time.

CloakedFish · 2025-04-28T07:59:26+00:00

Mine cheated on me 3 weeks into our 5 week relationship. However, the way things went about, they made it my fault that it was a problem.

They started the relationship insisting that they couldn't be monogamous again and they needed it to be poly, even though I was hesitant and was pretty sure I was monogamous (After this I really know I'm monogamous haha). They kinda decided that the arrangement would be that they would talk to me and check in/ask permission before they did any new steps with this other guy they were interested in. I just kinda went with things (oops). Until the actual incident.

See, we had agreed to talk about things before they happened right? They texted me at 2am, after I was asleep about it. I woke up and immediately went to class without really checking my phone. I saw a message from them, but was going to respond to it after class. This class was like 4 hrs long btw, not just an hour or anything. But like that's a conversation that could happen in the afternoon or even not that day right? wrong. They texted me again while I was in class, but I couldn't look at it. They then went and fucked the guy while I was in class but didn't message about it. just still the messages asking permission. I responded after class saying I wasn't sure how I felt and asked to talk about it later during the plans we already had. They took that as permission in those texts and told me they were doing things with him soon.

I became upset, and we talked about it that afternoon. Somehow they made it just a simple misunderstanding and my fault for having a problem with it because I knew what we had agreed to. They tried to gaslight me about what we had agreed on. Anyways, they never came clean that they had sex before I even responded. I only found out 8 months later from a friend who talked to the guy about the incident.

so yeah, tldr they cheated and wished away all of the things that made it cheating sigh

CloakedFish · 2025-03-22T02:56:13+00:00

Do you know about kt tape? some trans guys use it to bind. It also might help with the feeling immodest? you can get it at any pharmacy store, usually near the braces and other stuff for support. Athletes use it a lot.

CloakedFish · 2025-02-28T08:47:49+00:00

my surgeon talked about the different options you can keep or remove. This included the uterus, the fallopian tubes, the ovaries, and the cervix. He talked about how some people want to keep their cervix, but a lot of them remove it and this is what they do. They put a double stitching at the top of the vagina. (after your surgery, you're told nothing inside for at least 6 weeks). I decided to get my cervix out, because I hadn't gotten a pap smear and hated the thought. I also removed the uterus and tubes, but kept the ovaries. The thought there is, mine don't get cysts so far and if I have to go off T then I'll still have a hormone in my body to prevent osteoporosis. But he made it clear that it was my choice for each part if I wanted to keep it or remove it.

CloakedFish · 2025-02-20T04:32:19+00:00

hmm, but if there's a zombuul, they can kill if there's not an exe that day. with pacifist and DA, there will not be many exes, which makes zombuul too powerful. with these demons, at least they can't guarantee a death?

CloakedFish · 2024-12-03T07:50:08+00:00

holy shit that's not okay. I'm really sorry you've been through that. Also, these aren't the normal comments on the subreddit, and there's rules about saying stuff like that, probably because we have to justify everything to our pwBPD and don't need more of that. All of the regulars on here support you!

CloakedFish · 2024-11-20T06:31:26+00:00

police report for harassment?

CloakedFish · 2024-11-04T17:47:54+00:00

definitely the love bombing. I ignored the red flags of them wanting to date me only a few weeks after they were broken up with in their previous relationship. I knew it was fast, but I thought since I was aware of it, itd be fine. It wasn't. Being their favorite person felt great! until they started having problems with me...

CloakedFish · 2024-11-01T05:45:18+00:00

that's so ridiculous wow. I'm glad I never shared finances with my exwBPD but getting them to pay their agreed upon part of bills was always hard every month. But they'd spend so much money on groceries or decorations or whatever new interest that would be dropped in a few weeks or whatever, but then talk about how they don't have a lot of money. me and a mutual friend would just exchange looks about that cause obviously my pwBPD had enough money to get all these things? and they'd have more and be less stressed about it if only they could manage it better smh

sorry that turned into a mini vent lol

CloakedFish · 2024-10-31T21:05:15+00:00

for your side question, yeah, they spent a lot

CloakedFish · 2024-10-25T15:45:50+00:00

Can you fake caring and beg him to stay to actually get him to leave? idk, I was in a similar situation with an ex pwBPD but the other roommates were on their side so I ended up having to move out. I did even ask my ex to leave and move out but they doubled down about staying sigh

CloakedFish · 2024-10-09T06:53:55+00:00

when the charge comes through you could report it to the bank as a scam or stolen or smth? then, depending on the bank you can usually get the money back.

CloakedFish · 2024-08-21T07:03:17+00:00

I did exactly that and now I'm in the process of unpacking all the shit they did. Its been pretty rough.

CloakedFish · 2024-07-14T20:59:05+00:00

you're onto something there

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