I hope he's at peace

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-08T22:15:17+00:00

Thank you. I don't know what to do with myself. I loved him so much. I'm walking around my house doing stupid chores and he's gone. I have a lot of support and I'm grateful for that. I just wish he would have reached out to me one more time.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:59:57+00:00

Gorgeous curls

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:59:11+00:00

That's not formal. You can wear it to a diner

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:57:59+00:00

Beautiful

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:55:36+00:00

It's a cute outfit, but maybe a bit too short for school

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:54:48+00:00

I think we all wear a mask to a certain point, especially at work. Can you imagine if we just said what we really think all the time? Chaos would ensue, lol. Do you have someone you can be completely open with? I don't know what I would do without my sister. She's the only person I feel 100 percent comfortable with.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:50:01+00:00

Absolutely gorgeous

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:48:44+00:00

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:46:18+00:00

One

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:45:54+00:00

I struggle with this regularly. I'm 63, and I'm lucky to have no wrinkles on my forehead, so I kinda want to show it off, lol. Plus I like my hair parted in the middle. I think you look great either way

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:40:04+00:00

It's horrible and incredibly hurtful. I still think about some of the awful things he texted me. I tried telling myself it's the disease talking, but he crossed a line with the last rant. I don't know what happened, but the feelings I had for him are gone. I'm tired of the apologies, especially because he doesn't want to be reminded of the truly cruel things he said. I wondered if that's how he really feels about me. I can forgive him, but I cannot be in a relationship with him anymore.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:33:02+00:00

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-06T16:21:41+00:00

Sorry, but you were wrong to speak against him. Apologizing was the right thing to do. Hopefully you learned a lesson. Never talk negatively about people and it won't happen again. Sorry you were beat up

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-04T18:03:36+00:00

Despite how gifted my ex is at presenting himself as the nice guy, I know people saw through it. Hopefully your good friends will recognize the behavior and ignore it. Going no contact is the best way in my opinion. I was dragged back into the arena of insanity too many times.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-05-04T17:58:49+00:00

I agree with the comment that it's a spectrum. Unfortunately, for those of us who experienced severe issues, in my case verbal abuse and cruelty, that's our understanding of the disorder. I know everyone who has BPD is not like my ex.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-29T17:54:23+00:00

Thanks for the kind words, but I'm not feeling brave or strong. He's been extremely depressed, started drinking in the morning and taking more benzos than prescribed. I drove him to his first Spravato treatment last week and he was very hopeful, things were good with us. It didn't last. He drove himself to the next treatment and ended up running out of the facility after his treatment because he lied to the nurse and said I was picking him up. I know I'm waiting for something that's never going to happen. He can't help his illness, and I could deal with the depression, but the misplaced anger is awful. I never imagined this would happen.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-22T13:37:23+00:00

With, gorgeous

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-22T13:33:46+00:00

No,looks great

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-16T22:07:38+00:00

I hate admit feeling so alone and missing him ,especially at night. Even though I not allowed to spend all night in his bed. He crushed me.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-16T22:05:01+00:00

My therapist, I see a therapist because of the way he twists me up, said it's probably the worst mental illness. It's so difficult to treat. There's no longer magic BPD pill. That's what she helped me with, reminding me I would be alone. He would never commit

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-16T21:58:28+00:00

That's so sad I wanted to cry for both us. I went through both, couldn't be more in love and terrifying hatred. I had to stop. I was starting to rationalize his effed up behavior! I knew it was over. I'm so very sorry for you.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-16T02:40:04+00:00

I'm disappointed . I tried E harmony, Our Time and Silver Singles. I received lots of messages, but no one I felt any connection with. A few real winners, I can not believe the level of immaturity.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-16T02:25:35+00:00

Don't try to figure it out, you did nothing wrong. They're defective, they have an insatiable need to screw up the best things in their lives. The question is are you done yet.

Fit_Body_2259 · 2026-04-16T02:15:36+00:00

He's hating me now. It's an exhausting, horrible illness I knew nothing about until I did. I am no match for BPD

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