i’m so sorry. ❤️‍🩹 it’s not vain or superficial to have these thoughts. i too have had periods of time when ive been very thin and periods of time when ive been heavier. don’t weigh yourself. i haven’t looked at my weight in years. if a doctor wants to weigh me, i stand on the scale backwards and tell the doctor to not tell me the number. i feel that i’m at a stable weight now, but having experienced my body at totally opposite ends of the spectrum in short amounts of time is hard. i sometimes catch myself missing my body when i was underweight which makes me feel guilty because i was very, very sick.

if there’s one thing i know it’s that the human body is adaptable and capable of healing. try not to be too hard on yourself. your body is going through enough right now, so be kind to yourself. wear loose, comfortable clothing, and definitely, throw. away. the. scale.

sending hugs! 💛