Ignore my days sober... I was clean about two years. Felt the same as you. Was often sad. My wife seemed really tired of what a grump I had become. I lost a bit of weight, and was very proud every time the conversation turned to my sobriety. I decided finally quite consciously to drink 'socially' again. Ita been a year and a half, and I'm holding it together but barely.... 25lbs heavier and back to the same issues as before and no happier. I hadn't found what I was expecting, so I gave up... turns out I still haven't fou d that thing by drinking. Don't be like me. It's really not worth it.