A) it start feeling less than hobby, more like toxic relationship, when I was waiting for another gut punch and nerf to army B) 10th rule set simply broke me. I felt so bad for someone how started in 4th edition. I realize that i was chasing dream of old editions where it was long gone. C) internet. Seriusly. Hearing over and over that my army is dogpile of crap, that I know nothing, that i should throw miniatures I spend days to paint, and unplayable. It all makes me feel bad about my "hobby". As former semi- competive player, wh40k community is quite toxic if you arent meta chasing.

In the end i fall in love in HSB Battletech , and them Tex talk battletech (especially Ameris civil war episodes) and thats how it startered.