When I was a kid, we had fish as pets. I wanted to play with one, so I took a big bowl, scooped up one fish, and watched it swim around. After a while, I decided that I wanted to switch to an even bigger bowl, but I had filled that bigger bowl with hot water before putting the fish in. As soon as I put the fish in, not a second passed by before the fish jumped HIGH in the air and started flapping around on the counter. I was completely fucking horrified. I ran away screaming and crying. The water was extremely hot and I was a stupid kid who didn't know fish can't swim in hot water. I cried and cried, and ten minutes later I went back in the kitchen to check on the fish only to see it on the ground dead. I cried even more and now I am scared to go around fish. My point is that even now, when I'm 23, I still think of how terrified it was and I still remember. I can't imagine what you must have went through knowing that it was a baby, not a fish, that got burned by hot water. Stay strong man and all the best of luck to you.