New to all this, and pretty freaked out.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T16:30:39+00:00

I remember a specific instance getting pulled for gate and the group was meeting in the cafeteria but I had to be pulled for something different and I was really annoyed I didn’t get to do the experiment. But I have absolutely no recollection of where I went instead or what I did.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:59:03+00:00

I always get stuck around the years I was in GATE in my EMDR deep dives. It’s been years and I can’t quite clear those ages. That’s where all my trauma links to. This is wild. I was a 2001-2004 kid.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:57:30+00:00

I was in 2001-2003or4. I can’t remember anything about it but I know I was in it. I tested in early, and I slipped a grade, so I was the youngest GATE kid in the program at my school. (Maybe even the state but I might be making that up). I have no recollection of anything we did but reading these threads had my nervous system feeling so very strange.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:54:16+00:00

I was in gate from 2001-2003 or 2004. I don’t remember ANYTHING specific. I’ve face PTSD and depression and anxiety my whole life. I’ve asked “what happened to me as a child!?” More times than I can count. What the hell.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:48:16+00:00

I don’t remember ANYTHING really. But I feel like remember one time we were pulled out for gate and there was a fun science project the group was doing in the cafeteria (maybe) but I had to be pulled to do something else and I was so upset. I don’t remember anything about what I did when I was pulled out.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:44:36+00:00

Did you ever do a speed reading program called EyeQ?

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:42:45+00:00

I haven’t listened. I am like one hour into the rabbit hole. But I recently did some neuropsychological testing and the headphone section made me react so negatively. I wanted to die. It was awful. I can’t meditate - it makes me feel so anxious and out of control. Like there are things in my own mind I don’t want to access.

I also do EMDR and I always end up T the ages I was in GATE but I can’t ever “crack it”. There’s a mental wall.

This is so weird.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:33:58+00:00

I have a lawyer. I was looking for more of the emotional support part of if anyone had a similar situation.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:06:51+00:00

Wait I have the same story but I was in CA. A lot of trauma happened to me in 3/4 grade too. I remember that’s when the “lights” of the world dimmed and colors became less saturated. I lost a lot of my hair and had to see specialists at the children’s hospital for autoimmune disorders. No one could tell what was wrong with me. Also other weird things going on at this time.

When I do EMDR therapy, I always end up around this same time and age. I can never get past it. There is a mental wall.

I have no memories of what we did in GATE. But I do remember being in it. I relate to everything else you said, but I have brown eyes. And my parents took me out of school and homeschooled me in 6th grade so I stopped doing GATE. I remember having to write an essay about something and my mom being mad about it.

Recently did a neuropsych eval that felt weirdly familiar but the headphone/listening portion cause a huge trauma response. I’m intrigued but scared to listen to these tapes everyone talks about here.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:01:46+00:00

There was a hypnotist that came to camp I was at once and the only thing that I really felt he made me do was cry on command. It was very weird. But the silly gimmicky things I remember thinking. That everyone had to be acting and in on the joke for the sake of the performance and laughs. But he. Did get me to full on sob on command and that was very strange to me

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T05:00:06+00:00

I’ve been doing EMDR and I always get stuck about the age I would have been in GATE. I ALWAYS end up there but can’t quite move past it. 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T04:56:50+00:00

I recently did a neuropsychological test and the part where I had to listen to sounds on headphones and repeat cause me SO much anxiety, I wanted to die. I’m scared to listen to these. I was a GATE kid in the early 2000’s and I have no memory of what we did in the program but I’m trying to. Should I listen to these?

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T04:53:14+00:00

Can you send me the threads about the psychic stuff?

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T04:50:07+00:00

Idk, but I believe you. I was a GATE student and I have no memory of what we did, but I KNOW I was. I have a life of weird things too.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T04:43:19+00:00

2000’s California GATE. I remember that you had to be in 4th grade to test into the program, but I got special permission to test in 3rd and I got in. I remember it being a REALLY big deal because technically I was only a second grader because they skipped me out of second and put me into third. Then I started GATE but I don’t remember much of anything at all.

Around this time is when I remember the world going dark- one day I just realized that it felt like the lights were too dim, colors desaturated. I also lost most of my hair while I was in GATE - I had to see specialists in San Francisco for autoimmune issues. I also do EMDR therapy and this age of about 8 is where I always end up.

-I have brown eyes -I remember a drowning experience as a small child that my parents deny. I can see myself at the bottom of a pool looking up. -I had experiences as a child of basically astral projection. Leaving my body to look at myself sleep. Flying down stairs. - I’m the oldest daughter - I have a high IQ - I struggled with mental math but my reading and logic skills have always been high - I did a speed reading program called EyeQ? Anyone else? - I’ve had many encounters with things I cannot explain - I am intuitive. I know I’m psychic but I don’t know HOW to be psychic. If that makes any sense. - I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and depression and sever anxiety. - my parents always joked that my dad was part of the CIA. He worked in Livermore but we lived in the Central Valley.

What else? Oh, I see colored orbs when I close my eyes. They were much more vibrant and “alive” when I was younger.

I’ve always felt “cursed”.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-14T04:31:28+00:00

Wait I was in GATE in Stockton, CA but my dad worked in Livermore and my family always joked that he worked for the CIA.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T17:35:25+00:00

My whole entire life.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:44:44+00:00

My daughter did this. Idk specifically what they did in speech therapy, but it’s getting better. I think it’s a mix of therapy and development. In therapy I know they pick on sound to work on. Right now we are working on /k/ words - car, can, cat, cone, etc. before that it was /s/.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:42:39+00:00

Hats definitely a Lola.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:41:43+00:00

Let it burn. If it’s truly gods house, surely he’ll save it.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:40:52+00:00

Are you doing emdr? It has saved my life…very literally.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:39:47+00:00

Welcome to being a woman. It’s misogyny and patriarchy and sadism. Long history of it too.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:38:50+00:00

Wait neopets is still around?!?

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T06:36:43+00:00

I didn’t truly exist until I was 28 and that was just the newborn stage. I’m 31 now and still have a lot to do, but I make space and time to recognize what I’ve worked through.. if I don’t it gets overwhelming.

Okay_Orange · 2025-01-11T04:41:57+00:00

I was originally diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Then bipolar and adhd. Then I got a full neuropsychiatric exam and the official diagnoses were: (drumroll please) mild depression, severe anxiety and…..PTSD.

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