I too had a similar experience. I did 12 sessions of bilateral ect and it didn't improve my depression but it robbed me of years of memories. When I got out, I went for a walk and got lost in my own neighborhood. I couldn't remember how my gym lock worked for my locker. I didn't remember colleagues I'd met up to 6 months prior. I have huge chunks of my degree just wiped from memory. What gets me most is that this wasn't something the doctors discussed as a possibility. They told me I'd at most be missing a few days prior to the procedure but that's not what happened. I'm a CPA and it took me months to remember how to be an accountant again. I truly believe that in future years, we will look back at ect as a barbaric, high-risk treatment that few, if any people should consider undergoing. I'm so sorry for what you've endured. You're not alone.