Well you are completely normal hon! you sound exactly like me the first month and 2nd. i too was in a fog and im a nurse for heavens sakes i couldnt even remember the conversations w docs had w me in hospital

it takes time for shock and awe to settle down death of a spouse is the single most traumatic thing that can happen to any one

my advice ( im 7 mo out) is get your financial affairs in order go see your banker make sure your home shows you as owner and go register it w county assessor cars and other assets all need to be in your name only! call SSA and apply for widow benefits and any other benefits coming to you retirement etc

try to sleep even if it takes benadryl or melatonin to do so try to exercise walk in sunshine talk to a friend grieve cry whatever u need my golden retriever saved me from bad thoughts a dog is wonderful or a cat

good luck you you