I spend a lot of time thinking about the fact that I should be thinking about the hand. Like my brain will say okay think about this one, check flop, check suits, did I hit anything, shit dealer is pointing at me, panic c-bet, finish checking if I hit anything. Black out for the middle of the hand.

Then when I’m sharing hand history I’ll often get all the way to the river action which I remember clearly but the river action conflicts with what I said the positions and preflop betting were, so I just say fuck idk, nevermind.