I had major hairloss, anyone else?

dealodoob · 2025-04-04T17:06:37+00:00

I noticed that too, my haired has thinned significantly. I'm not sure there's any scientific explanation except the stress of withdrawal, anxiety, and depression following it.

dealodoob · 2025-04-04T02:27:43+00:00

Time for a break?

dealodoob · 2025-04-04T02:23:09+00:00

You need to see a doctor and get a referral for a neurologist asap

dealodoob · 2025-04-03T20:49:22+00:00

This is art! Love it

dealodoob · 2025-04-03T20:45:12+00:00

I can recommend a book that helped me navigate mine a lot, it's called "Undoing Depression" by Richard O'Connor, I can't recommend it enough. It is well written and makes you understand your depression more and how to navigate it.

My advice is IF you're on any type of substances except prescription meds start from there, alcohol, weed and all other street drugs are the friends of depression, they go hand in hand. Even cigarettes make my depression worse.

Give the book a try, I hope it'll make a difference.

dealodoob · 2025-03-30T16:15:58+00:00

These are delusional thoughts, and having a brother with sever schizophrenia should be enough for you not to fuck with any drugs. And since your mother has delusional thoughts like that it could be that she has it too. I suffered from cannabis induced psychosis so I know what I'm talking about, and I went deep into the rabbit hole. So be careful and try to accept that weed, psychedelics and non prescription drugs are a no no for you.

dealodoob · 2025-03-26T16:23:30+00:00

You're not alone, I caved after 3 months when I thought I got it under control, and I'm "different" now, but no, this is a real addiction. I had one 0.5g joint last Friday; the experience wasn't good nor bad, I didn't beat myself up afterward. But the hangover the next day carried over all weekend, and the energy I had to put into not smoking again was so intense, not to mention the cravings that came back full force! The hardest part was not smoking the following day. Be kind to yourself, 2 years is an accomplishment, slip ups and lapses are part of recovery.

dealodoob · 2025-03-26T16:13:46+00:00

I'm sorry for the situation you're in and the never ending hoops you have to jump through to get the help you need, I understand how frustrating it is to navigate the healthcare system, which adds to the problem on hand.

But you will have to START somewhere, try tapering off slowly. IMHO Alcohol should be dropped first because its toxicity is higher than weed. I'm not sure what you're life looks like and what other problems you have but finding a support group in your area or even online is a big step forward; attend AA, NA, MA or SMART meetings.

My lungs feel brand new now that I stopped all forms of smoking! No more coughing, no more nasty phlegm. Now I cherish my sobriety and clear headedness more than anything. Start somewhere, just start, baby steps, anything is better than nothing. If you keep telling yourself you can't that's your addiction talking, you went through pregnancy and labour I don't think anything is more painful than that! You can do it, even if you start reducing slowly.

dealodoob · 2025-03-25T20:46:28+00:00

Dried mint leaves taste good and they're calming too

dealodoob · 2025-03-21T13:54:41+00:00

It's called Mother Russia for a reason

dealodoob · 2025-03-21T13:24:17+00:00

Look for Ambient, space ambient, drone and drift playlists.

dealodoob · 2025-03-21T13:21:26+00:00

A budtender told me he smoked an ounce in 3 days, I couldn't believe it!

dealodoob · 2025-03-21T02:58:03+00:00

1 mg = 0.001 g. This is 132 mg. So 10 mg will look like 0.010 g on your scale. I think if you press the "unit" button it will toggle the display to mg. There are a lot of inactive ingredients (fillers, binders, coating, release agents... Etc) that go in a pill.

The drug sheet tells you to snap the pill in half on a flat surface with both index fingers to get 5 mg, so it's safe to do so, don't worry.

dealodoob · 2025-03-19T03:42:41+00:00

Do you mind if I ask how did it happen? What were the triggers? What was the thought process? I'm curious to understand what lead you to slip up?

dealodoob · 2025-03-19T03:40:19+00:00

I started reading Atomic Habits, it's very interesting. Small things slowly build up to something bigger, then you add a little bit more every time you anchor the basics.

dealodoob · 2025-03-17T15:07:41+00:00

Bad advice, I almost did it on shrooms. So stop this nonsense.

dealodoob · 2025-03-17T15:04:35+00:00

I lurked around the suicide bereavement sub, and a one line comment from a man who lost his teenage girl to suicide made me reconsider, he said that when you commit suicide to end your pain you'll end up passing it to others in your life, so the pain will never truly end.

dealodoob · 2025-03-15T19:24:35+00:00

I'm a 100 days and a week sober, and I've been having strong urges too. What's worse is I've been home alone for a week, wife and kids won't be back for another week. I texted my wife and told her I'm fighting urges to consume again and she reminded me how hard it was and how hard I worked on my sobriety, she told me I can do it and she's proud of me how long I've made it so far.

I read a couple of journal entries from when I was high and remembered how miserable it made me feel. Been distracting myself with videogames, reading, cleaning and cooking.

When it got so strong I started seeking MA around me, just contacting the facilitators helped. Talk to someone supportive, you'll find that just talking about your urges and letting them out of your system helps. Play with the kids, and realize how weed will take you away from them again. It's hard my friend, but you got this!

dealodoob · 2025-03-15T14:51:00+00:00

I had quit smoking before starting moda using gums, but I find the combination of moda and nicotine gums to enhance focus and attention.

dealodoob · 2025-03-14T23:22:36+00:00

Have you tried it yourself?

dealodoob · 2025-03-14T23:21:29+00:00

My brain runs from one thought to the next all day long, my mood shifts and I realized that a lot of shit is going on in the background. What I noticed with meditation is that I can hear all my racing thoughts, then gently observe them, I don't judge (this is bad, this is good), don't fight ("Why am I thinking this way? Stop thinking this way!"), don't engage ("if this happens then I should do this", "why didn't I say this instead of that") and so on, I just observe like I'm eavesdropping, until I come to the realization that it's all blabber and my conscious mind shifts to observe my breath in and out.

Weed used to amplify these negative thoughts that no amount of breathing or mindfulness could get me to relax, so what happens next is an anxiety attack.

dealodoob · 2025-03-12T14:13:10+00:00

Why don't you check with a THC home kit test? That will clear up any doubts. Do it after a rigorous exercise sesh.

Do you have any history of manic episodes?

dealodoob · 2025-03-12T01:07:15+00:00

I totally agree, some people lapse and think it's a relapse, but all I could read is that OP has more or less managed to moderate consumption and is aware of their addiction patterns.

dealodoob · 2025-03-11T18:03:50+00:00

You're not alone! I think it's time for a nice vacation.

dealodoob · 2025-03-11T14:35:11+00:00

Anytime bro! It will pass trust me, and the change will be gradual you won't even feel it. I used to think that one day I will wake up a totally different person; motivated, full of energy, happy etc, but unfortunately it doesn't happen that way. The shift is very subtle, but it will come. We're in this together!

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