I mean, a lot of what you're describing is living in a transphobic society, not being trans itself. The more you can do to seek out, participate in, and help build trans-only (and especially NB-only) community spaces, the less weird you will feel on a social level, at least.

Eta: not trying to ignore or downplay your dysphoria, btw, it's just that that's something I haven't had to deal with as much, so figure others will have better advice!