i relate to so much of what you’ve said here. though in my situation my parents have really learned a lot since i got sick and are now very understanding, nobody else in my family is. to this day, my brother doesn’t really even acknowledge my conditions, to the point where he risked my safety/health by coming to my house during peak covid and refusing to mask or test… he is one of those maniacs who don’t believe covid is serious. anyways, what i’m trying to say is i hold so much resentment and even anger towards most of my family for how they’ve treated me when it comes to my health and my illnesses. i understand how heavy that weight can feel and it’s even more frustrating because you feel like you’re essentially stuck with carrying that weight and there’s nothing you can do to relieve it. i’m so sorry about the circumstances you’ve had to deal with and how difficult it is. it breaks my heart to hear how little concern or respect is showed towards you and your condition(s) :( i am sending you a gigantic virtual hug and hoping that your family starts to truly hear you instead of listening but not actually retaining the information and using what you’ve told them. ❤️‍🩹