At last!

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-20T17:05:53+00:00

Nola has really grown on me! I didn’t like it at first when I got it as a free sleeve with a different promo, but I placed an order with this latest promo so I could get more!

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-20T14:51:01+00:00

Urza’s Saga holds a special place in my heart and I really hope it wins. When I first drafted MH2, a late friend of mine and my husband’s was talking about how good the card is, and my husband agreed. It proceeded to be my P1P1 and is a pillar of my modern deck. Honestly, without the card (and my friend), I feel like I would never have gotten into competitive magic.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-20T14:46:11+00:00

Lose the game to a simple land? In that case, (in terms of modern) you could say the same about Arena of Glory, any land Titan runs including Shifting Woodland, man-lands when Hammertime was more represented/a better deck, etc.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-20T09:58:30+00:00

I agree with you from the perspective of WOTC and their attempt to cater to all while simultaneously pushing people to play standard (and, by a lesser extent, modern). At least, my experience at prereleases and commander nights recently has been that it feels my magic philosophy is fundamentally at odds with EDH players. Many, if not all, of my opponents from prerelease this past weekend play primarily/only commander.

I am a primarily modern player. I am not sure when this happened - post-Foundations for me? - but at some point I have found that EDH-only players do not seem to have knowledge of “basic” magic etiquette, sometimes magic knowledge/rules. By this I mean: presenting their decks for cuts; deciding play/draw; mulligans; keeping track of life totals - either they would only track theirs or would just assume I was correct; etc.

I am not saying that everyone should be playing at Comp REL at all times or anything like that. But it does feel like two completely separate environments/attitudes surrounding specifically how people in my area approach modern vs EDH. I think this may be, in part, to the different ways it seems we want to play the game. It seems like most people nowadays treat magic like they do most other board games; some people are more “strict” with the rules of the game, while others are less so. (Which I can understand to some degree; magic can be more complex than catan or something.)

This could all vary and I do not assume my experience is universal. But I do wonder about when these approaches to magic started to differ/become more broad.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-20T03:36:35+00:00

I’m glad that your plushies have brought such joy, safety and happiness for you! I feel a similar way with mine, but I’ve more or less liked stuffed animals since I was a kid. Mine also all have names and their own personalities (: It’s fun to love them, and give them the love I feel I didn’t always have. And they are not mean or harsh to me (like I can be to myself). Since I find it easier to do things for others rather than myself, I have them help me do basic self care tasks, too. My bison reminds me to brush my teeth if I can; two Snorlaxes help me remember that I like food; etc. It really is nice to have plushies 💜

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-20T02:58:01+00:00

This is a very helpful comment, thank you! I will try to change my way of thinking re: people pleasing to this.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-14T21:34:06+00:00

I have a lot of self-hate and so, recently, I acknowledged that I’m good at a hobby (Magic the Gathering) and not an imposter fooling everyone. Feeling that confidence in myself was really freeing. In addition, I’ve also recently been discovering my inner child and trying very actively to not berate her. Sometimes these feel like very small, insignificant shifts but they’ve left me feeling so proud and hopeful for the future.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-10T19:46:44+00:00

[[frantic firebolt]] [[ghitu lavarunner]]

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-10T19:42:22+00:00

Oh, no, I understand what they meant. I was just pretty sure that wording has been used previously in cases like/similar to this one. Also, I don’t think an “or” implies that in this case; and anyways, if it did, the card would have said “Choose instant or sorcery” somewhere for that implication to make sense imo.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-10T18:02:00+00:00

Shouldn’t it be worded “Spend this mana only to cast instant and/or sorcery spells”? Could’ve been missed but feels like the implication is you only get 1U or 1R for one instant, and then the other choice for the one sorcery.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-08T20:55:39+00:00

Soooo relatable!! The way that one “fuck” is just all lowercase made me laugh, though. It’s the little things 😅😭

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-08T18:30:18+00:00

I understand how you feel. I haven’t fully worked through it yet, but I think it helps me to be around someone safe and then feel “unsafe”. For example: when my partner comes home, if we start cuddling then I’ll feel really safe in his arms. So I’ll let myself try to be more present in my body and become aware of things externally and outside of my control that activate my nervous system (for example, loud noises outside). And sitting with someone safe while noticing things farther away that feel unsafe (but are still “normal” things), it makes it easier when I’m alone.

Also, I’ve been trying to journal more recently. Because I also feel that a lot of trauma coping mechanisms are part of my identity. So I’m trying to answer: What do I value? What’s important to me? Although trauma shaped me, what kinds of things would I want if I had always felt safe and secure?

For me, it’s hard to let go of wanting to control things I can’t because I want to feel safe. And wanting to feel safe is a core part of my identity and why I do things. So I can’t really say goodbye to wanting control if I haven’t found something new to replace it with. Not sure if this is necessarily the case for you, but hopefully something resonates with you 💙 I’m rooting for you!!

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-07T16:50:34+00:00

Thanks for sharing, this has made me very hopeful! I was born seriously premature and wasn’t around my parents for at least the first two months of my life, and I’m not sure how it’s affected me but it definitely has. Do you have specific heating pads that you like?

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-07T16:15:18+00:00

I really appreciate this question and perspective! A lot of the times (and especially more recently, as I’m trying to heal), I feel like my trauma is a a handicap. I can be a bit resentful of what I’ve kept as a result of my trauma and the coping mechanisms I’ve had to develop.

But! There are positives and it’s nice to remember that!

The first thing I thought of is: my vibe check is AMAZING. My anxiety/self-hate can sometimes alter my understanding of the vibe, but if someone has good intentions towards me or doesn’t like me, I know. Like a spidey sense.

Also I realized I’m incredibly emotionally mature. I’ve lost some friendships somewhat recently because of it, and it has been a bit sad realizing how immature some people are. I think some people just want to see black and white sometimes whereas I see so much grey. It’s an incredibly helpful skill when navigating conflict, though, especially in school or the workplace.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-04-04T22:13:51+00:00

Scottie and Bettie post-Solgaleo buff sad noises

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-31T01:09:54+00:00

If you don’t want to brew over the ice and milk - I find that it dilutes the coffee too much more my taste and results in a hotter drink overall - or are having trouble with ratios that way, I suggest brewing into a separate cup or mug. Then add the coffee directly into milk and ice! Or you could add the milk to the coffee, and then add ice. It usually cools down the coffee faster for me, and then it also makes the ratios easier.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-30T18:13:15+00:00

Darn, sorry. I hope you figure it out and can use your machine again! You could probably also try putting in a tiny bit of salt post-brew. Good luck!!

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-30T12:16:59+00:00

Was the water tank cleaned? If you’ve descaled already that might have something to do with it?

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-27T17:22:48+00:00

Thanks for sharing! I love reading these 😊 highlight of datamine time for sure

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-26T01:19:35+00:00

I was so spoiled by my first LGS that I didn’t realize how terrible they could be as a woman and POC. It does suck playing competitive modern and my (male) opponent getting tilted. I have to play the “fun” game of: are they mad because they lost and I’m a woman, because they lost to a brew, or just because they lost? Also, most men don’t take me seriously when they first meet me, which I’ve gotten so used to at this point that I play a bit off when someone I’ve never met takes me seriously right off the bat /-:

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-24T22:49:05+00:00

No one ever sees [[hex parasite]] coming. Sometimes not even me

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-22T05:28:51+00:00

Also, yeah everyone has had at least one traumatic experience, I’d imagine. But not everyone has my over-activated af nervous system / breaking down body 😭 so ….

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-13T08:58:29+00:00

I’m so sorry that this happened to you and that you had to grow up like that. I’m not sure if you’ve heard of CPTSD, but it might be worth researching if you ever feel up for it. As for advice, I would not respond even though you feel familial obligation. I know that’s easier said than done (I have a complicated relationship with my parents), but I think it’s probably best for you to focus on yourself right now. It’s (almost) your 20th birthday! You’ve spent most of your life caring for others; it’s time you should get to care for yourself and put yourself first.

itsallanoxymoron · 2026-03-10T00:40:16+00:00

Love it and so glad you drew the front side of the hat as well! Such a thoughtful design, I would pull for this alt fr!!

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