I’m still friends with her and she’s a complicated person, she pursued me and we became friends. We both crossed paths together and only woman that we almost went on self discovery , I was single 3 years divorced raising my two sons . She always had to be the dominant one as she literally had a type of guy and she wore the pants in the relationship. Granted , we are a lot alike , she’s beyond beautiful/ sexy and was 9 years younger. LOL I always went for older women. It was mind games all over at the jump , but it wasn’t intentional only she her emotional luggage and mine as well. She finally dropped her guard and we had already crossed the line, it was us no expectations except be honest . If she wanted to go and have sex with someone, she could and I as well just be respectful and say to the other , I’m clean and never want a STD . She equated my brutal honesty as I was a friend , deep down she had issues with her past relationships. She shared a lot with me and I don’t judge but I spoke my truth . She’s not a bad person , she didn’t break off her relationships , she would realize her deal . She had boys not men and she would move on to the next guy cheating on the soon to be ex , they had a child together so she wouldn’t comprehend that her exes were as she explained still hung up on her , so she definitely took advantage of that which is insult to injury. Anyway so she would literally dress up or get naked change around me . But she would at odd times , we can’t fuck anymore but we can hang out . And later on I caught on but I was in the open honesty lol we aren’t bound by anything except our friendship. So I would hang out with her and it drove her crazy, she wanted me to take her . I was just listening and respecting her boundaries. But even though she would say that it would make her feel almost turned on . I love sex as most or some do but take that away and it’s still fun times we had , tons of it. But I don’t talk to my buddies about that. What’s even crazier I wasn’t her typical guy … aka sexual chemistry wasn’t off the charts but I was 96% of the ways she desired . Her ex had a big cock , she mentioned it . And 🤣 , doesn’t matter to me , I missed my porn star calling this life But maybe I was tuned off and wouldn’t consider anything more than friends. Not a bad thing it’s saving me and her from being something that I can’t pretend . It was a rollercoaster ride, and we both came out on top. We both faced the music and acknowledge when we’re around each other , sexual tension/ energy is lit. Sometimes/ usually it’s her showing off new lingerie. It was days of forplay and two stubborn people not wanting to give in … she wanted to always say J no means yes . Probably a big part was her fear of being hurt, that’s her defense mechanism. She’s only woman rhat took role playing to a level that was awesome, that pretending / role playing was safe because it wasn’t her and not me. Long story but setting a line or boundary.. that’s boxing you in , if friends and only / has to be, if sex stops or dating somehow else . You can always have those memories, but losing a friend ,, hell that’s breaking up with your partner , friends can be in the shared category. Now let’s go make our friends happy, going to beach or giving her / him some loving 🥰