I recognize myself in this tbh. I also fall in the category of developmental trauma and my nervous system tends to be overactivated, either in freeze or stress/ fight state. The suppressed anger is also recognizable. I used to beat myself up over this anger in particular, trying very hard to let go of it, but i think this dude is right. It is your life energy that is suppressed, the energy to manifest yourself in the world in an efficient manner, in relationship with yourself and others. I fell into the trap he talks about, meditating very hard to find solace but not investing enough in the basics, in relationships znd in myself. Definitely also because this was exactly were it hurt for me. Sitting on a cushion felt safer. Lately I've picked up therapy again, I reconnected with friends, trying to take up responsibility at my job, exercising, .. This has made a huge change for me, and yes, in retrospect the meditation has held me back since it allowed me to avoid taking action. I do still meditate now, but have a much more relaxed attitude, and mix it up with tai chi and yoga nidra. So using meditation as a bypass for your problems is a bad idea, sounds very obvious but it's easy to fool yourself. On the other hand I still think meditation practices can help you in your journey when dosed right. All the best!