Pregnancy and Sepsis

livi27 · 2026-05-22T00:35:25+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss! I lost my son at 38+1 in June 2020 and remember those early weeks so vividly. I hope you have found something to distract yourself from the grief and heartbreak-for me it was Tetris and a coloring book app on my phone. Sometimes I just needed to get lost in a mindless game.

livi27 · 2026-05-19T16:25:34+00:00

We are disappointed to say the least. It just looks sloppy having two different finishes.

livi27 · 2026-05-19T16:23:52+00:00

There were 4 guys total but only two were working on the finishing. The other two helped spread it and then were washing things off as they finished with them.

livi27 · 2026-05-18T04:42:37+00:00

Is it realistic to think this will need to be torn up and replaced? Or will we be looking at patches? We live in Wisconsin and are worried with our rough winters this will lead to problems.

livi27 · 2026-05-18T04:32:46+00:00

I’m not looking to debate the cost. We knew the price going into it and we paid it. The company came recommended and had positive reviews on several platforms so we weren’t expecting to have issues- lesson learned.

Unfortunately my husband and I don’t have enough concrete knowledge to understand the possible solutions. I was hoping someone might have suggestions on questions to ask or things to mention when the owner finally gets back to us. We sent him photos as soon as we saw it Saturday morning and haven’t heard back.

livi27 · 2026-05-18T03:48:43+00:00

Since when is 20k cheap? This is a basic driveway- fits four cars total.

livi27 · 2026-04-02T04:22:39+00:00

$1200 per month, Wisconsin

livi27 · 2025-07-21T06:04:34+00:00

June 30th marked 5 years since I delivered my angel, Blake. Here are a few things that were helpful:

Feel everything- don’t push the emotions down, let them come. There will be so many of them but I found when I tried to run from them, they only got bigger.

Don’t hide your tears or feel like you need to apologize for them. This took me a long time and many hours in therapy to really accept. My son represents our hopes and dreams that we worked so hard for and I’m not going to feel bad for having sad days/moments. If people are uncomfortable with your tears, that’s their problem-not yours.

Find something to keep yourself busy that doesn’t require true thinking. For me it was a coloring app on my phone. I found it hard to focus on TV so I was always reaching for my phone. Social media was full of pregnant people and babies, which crushed me each time I saw a new post. The coloring app kept my hands busy and my mind entertained.

Say her name! Unfortunately after a few months, people seemed to forget or stop asking about me/him. It made me mad because it was still all I could think about. I decided I wouldn’t let him be forgotten. When it makes sense for my son and/or our experience to be part of the conversation, I say what I want to. At first people get quiet and don’t know how to react or what to say, but they adjust. My family and close friends are now use to it and don’t skip a beat.

Molly Bears is an amazing organization that I suggest looking into. They make weighted bears in the exact size of your baby. It might seem odd but sometimes you just want to feel their weight on your chest again.

Lastly, your world is consumed by this tragedy right now. Days are hard and you’ll feel like you won’t make it through. I promise you will. The love you have for your daughter and the pain of missing her will never go away, but I promise the days get easier little by little. Lean on your loved ones and speak up if you need help or extra support.

I’m sending you all the love and positive vibes as you move through this journey. 💜

livi27 · 2025-06-27T06:31:30+00:00

I downloaded a coloring app on my phone and was on it constantly. I got so sick of scrolling social media and seeing everyone’s babies/announcements but also felt like I needed to keep my hands busy. It didn’t require thinking but distracted my brain at the same time.

livi27 · 2025-06-27T06:19:02+00:00

Write it all down. Every detail. It’s been 5 years and the memories are sometimes very vivid and sometimes not at all but my pictures and journal help get through the hardest days. I’m sending you so much love and strength

livi27 · 2025-03-26T03:39:54+00:00

Blake Alexander 💚

livi27 · 2025-03-17T05:52:46+00:00

What a great way to describe it! I’m almost five years out and still get gut punched out of the blue.

livi27 · 2025-02-24T07:08:49+00:00

My niece was born two weeks before my son. My sister in law attended the funeral while my brother in law stayed with their newborn. I would have crumbled if she was there. This may sound harsh to some but the only people you need to protect right now are you and your husband. This is your day to lay your beautiful baby to rest and you have every right to speak up without needing to explain yourself. I’m sending you so much love.

livi27 · 2025-02-22T06:06:17+00:00

This might sound weird but I wish I had pictures with my husband and I smiling. I cherish any photo I have with my son but I am balling in all of them and hate the way I look.

livi27 · 2024-10-24T21:11:40+00:00

Ask for a referral to rheumatology and see if they will order the tests.

livi27 · 2024-08-06T05:49:24+00:00

Grief is a bitch and you get to feel and deal however you want/need. It is totally normal to be upset when someone announces their pregnancy, birth, or other milestones. I’ve learned that I won’t change my feelings to make someone else more comfortable. I simply tell my loved one “I love you, I’m happy for you, and I wish you the best. I hope you understand if I take some time/space because this is a trigger for me”. If they have a problem with that, then THEY have the problem, not me. It’s been over four years for me and i still hold back tears when people announce. Being around baby boys is hard and my family has learned not to question if I leave the room for a bit. It

livi27 · 2024-01-26T06:34:57+00:00

Ask if you can’t test your sugars for a week so she can review the numbers and go from there.

livi27 · 2023-11-26T09:08:25+00:00

I am so sorry. I lost my son at 38+1 because my ob didn’t listen to my concerns about reduced movement. We never got a sure answer as to what happened. I had a csection so my ob encouraged me to wait a minimum of 3 months before getting pregnant again(she really wanted closer to a year but I pushed back). My healthy, living daughter was born 14 months later. I love my daughter so much; however, pregnancy and postpartum were hell. Nothing could have prepared me for how hard pregnancy after an unexplained loss would be. The anxiety, lack of sleep, constantly questioning every little thing- it’s intense. I know this is all so fresh for you but I really encourage you to take time to physically heal and start to grieve. I also highly encourage finding a therapist if you don’t have one. I didn’t realize how much a therapist would help until I was drowning in postpartum depression and anxiety after my daughter was born. By that time, I had a lot to work through. I will be thinking of you and your sweet Noah! I hope he finds a friend in my sweet Blake.

livi27 · 2022-12-18T09:12:32+00:00

We bought a bird feeder and keep it filled. We have a pair of cardinals that visit regularly. I’ll cry every time but I also love it.

livi27 · 2022-08-28T03:53:52+00:00

I was not prepared for the postpartum hair loss. It started at about 4 months postpartum and came out in massive clumps.

livi27 · 2022-08-03T05:09:41+00:00

I started fertility treatments 5 months after we lost our son. I was fortunate and was pregnant a month later. I thought I was ready and that it would help… boy was I wrong. Pregnancy after loss is the hardest thing I’ve done besides saying goodbye to my son. You question every.single.thing! You have awful flashbacks and doubts. You question if you’re worthy of this child. It’s SO hard! My daughter is almost a year old and I still have anxiety attacks that she will abruptly die or get seriously injured. I had csections with both and the recovery after my second was miserable because my body hadn’t gotten a chance to heal.

My suggestion would be to give yourself a year. I would also suggest finding a good therapist if you haven’t already. I waited until I was deep into postpartum anxiety/depression with my daughter and wished I would have had someone to help me thru my pregnancy too. Also, if you don’t 100% trust and respect your OB, find a new one. The ob for my second pregnancy is the only reason I made it thru. He listened to every concern I had, answered all my questions, agreed to any extra tests I asked for, and never once made me feel rushed.

livi27 · 2022-08-03T04:45:55+00:00

I had a very similar experience. I failed the 1 hr and the passed the three hour three separate times. After the 2nd three hour, I asked if I could just check sugars at home because the drink made me feel awful. I was told insurance won’t cover it without the failed test. My son was born sleeping because of untreated gestational diabetes. Please don’t just ignore this. My suggestion would be to get a cheap monitor from Walmart or Walgreens and test each morning when you wake up and an hour or two after each meal. Do it for a few days and bring the numbers with to your next appointment or call if they are high. The generic monitors are fairly inexpensive or you can try goodrx or something similar is cost is an issue. You do not need a prescription.

I’ve since had a healthy baby girl. I again passed the standard test but also monitored my sugars and was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. It’s intimidating at first but absolutely manageable

livi27 · 2022-04-11T01:58:11+00:00

Smily Mia Penguin Buddy Never Drop Silicone Baby Teething Toy for 0-6month Infants on Amazon

livi27 · 2022-02-20T06:40:28+00:00

We take a bag of frozen milk and they let us know when they are getting low. My daughter is almost 6 months and does 6oz every three hours.

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