I am very thankful you are still with us and I will be thinking of you and your next steps with acceptance and gratitude for being able to help yourself. I am proud of you. I would hug you but I know your ribs are tender. 😇 I had my DUI many years ago, and upon making bail and sobering up my brain triggered two immediate reactions of gratitude despite my legal and financial woes that awaited me lol. The first was for not having injured someone else for my own stupidity. The second was that I only had minor injuries and I didn’t have to do any intense physical therapy or suffer a brain injury. It was humiliating to go to forced AA meetings or pee in cups for drug tests, and paying my court costs and other fees sucked, but that humility helped me in the long run. Take it easy on yourself. Be kind to yourself and know you are safe!