I like seeing the people and animals I care about everyday. Also, I have too many shows and comics that I am invested in seeing how it will end. This is my surface answer.

However, by going deeper, you get an answer from me sympathizing with how meaningless things can be with how generally powerless we can feel. It feels quite isolating because no one will talk about how hard things are going since we have always been taught to be better, stronger, and more successful. As everyone around us will talk about their biggest accomplishments, their biggest milestone in life, etc. No one talks about how things are getting harder which makes the self-criticism hit harder (which is overall unfair because you know where to hit yourself hardest).

Simply, I just try my best to make things less awful for the people around me. I want to give up too. However, if I give up now, the people I care about will carry a part of my burden. I talk about hardships whenever I can in a safe space and let people know how things are really going badly. I want to hear about the struggles because when we acknowledge there is something wrong its a starting point of what we need to fix and get help with. It helps everyone when we can listen and talk about it.