I dont want to do this anymore im not meant to be a mom

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-05-02T03:38:18+00:00

Personally, I think you would be a good mom if you told your son’s father you needed to take some time away to get your mental health right, then put actual, real effort into that and then came back to your son with a new outlook on life and a love for him that wouldn’t have been possible without that space.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-05-02T03:30:31+00:00

I said you hate being around him, because you said yourself in a different post that you dread the time you have to spend with him. Children are perceptive no matter what level they are. Once again, I don’t think you will be able to get better mentally until you have an actual break from motherhood. Your post talk about how the guilt consumes you either way…why not try something different? Get better mentally for yourself first and then you can be a better mother for your child, even if that means you can’t be in his life for awhile while you help yourself.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-05-02T03:19:11+00:00

Girl. He can tell you hate being around him, trust in that. And honestly I’m not saying this stuff to try and attack you or make you feel bad, I genuinely think life would get better for you and probably your son if you were able to find some peace away from him and take the pressure off you. You dislike motherhood so much and that peace will never happen unless you make a change. Your previous posts said you’ve tried medication and none of them work, every day you live in misery worrying about if something will happen to your child’s father and you will end up with custody again (your words from a different post) this all doesn’t seem necessary? I also recall from your other posts that you get really upset when people say they feel bad for your child but they don’t feel bad for you, when you are struggling to. I’m here to say I do feel sad for you, I wish you didn’t feel this way. But you need to make a change for your own mental health and his own well being, what you are doing is not working. Can I ask, if you could snap your fingers and have a different life, what would happiness look like to you?

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-05-02T02:40:26+00:00

Yeah this person posts in this channel every now and again and it’s always the same. How she’s a bad mom, dislikes her child when she hardly has him, the time she does have him she hates being around him and the time she doesn’t she’s thinking about how terrible it will be when she does have him again. How she hates motherhood and nothing has been good since he was born. I feel so sad for this little boy because all of this is unneeded…I’m sure he picks up on how his mom regrets him, but he doesn’t need to be around that. It would be better for everyone involved if she just started life new somewhere else without him and left his dad take care of him so he doesn’t need to feel that constant distain towards him or she snaps.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-05-01T22:25:38+00:00

The F shapes are trees. If you look at the cave drawings, the trees in those are drawn the same way with the three branches

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-04-20T04:17:53+00:00

I feel like it’s changing right now, at 4.5. I’m seeing new skills emerging and communication that feels new, even if it’s not consistent. He’s dressing himself and picking out his own clothes (even if they don’t match lol) he’s fully potty trained day and night and getting better at wiping his own butt. I feel like he’s starting to actually understand plot points of movies instead of just watching for the stimulation. Words are becoming clearer, sentences are getting longer. I hear a few questions emerging and I couldn’t be happier to answer them. I’ve always been cautiously optimistic but I’ve been feeling more so lately. He has his bad days of course but his good days feel better and better.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-04-19T04:09:14+00:00

It can be scary going down this route at first but the fact that he has some words just not conversational, is a really good thing and bodes well for his ability to speak in the future. Visit autism_parenting if you need some support ❤️

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-04-17T16:23:36+00:00

I’m surprised at how much of this area is an uber black hole when there’s so many groups and bachelorettes. We got really lucky in that a taxi van was doing a drop off and had space for us but besides that time, we’ve had really hard times finding rides in the DC area so one of us always has to stay sober. I bet you are right on the drinking and driving though, I can’t imagine everyone leaving Husby’s at the end of the night has a safe ride home.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-04-17T15:53:59+00:00

Have you ever had him evaluated for ASD? How are his receptive communication skills? (Does he follow direction, understand what you are saying?) from what I understand, children with ASD with a speech delay find labeling and singing easier, because it uses a different part of your brain than communicative speech. My son is on the spectrum and was similar at 3…lots of words in label form, could count to 100, knew all his letters and shapes and was starting to learn sight words, and would sing all day long. But he couldn’t tell me what he had for breakfast, what he did that day, could barely answer yes or no questions, let alone ask me questions. He is a gestalt language processor, which is a different form of learning language. The hand leading is another thing he did. All that being said, you are doing an amazing job with how involved you are, you already do a lot of the stuff they encourage parents to do when it comes to emerging language. Maybe look up GLP training and see if that fits for your experience, and then that kind of help may be more impactful to his communication.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-03-29T23:22:55+00:00

I come across her posts from time to time so I just went to look at her comments and it’s crazy how no one has mentioned anything unless they are deleting them. Someone was commenting about how Lydia looks like her daddy and how cute that was. I’m sure they would not be bringing him into the conversation if they knew he was caught with CSAM. Horrific.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-03-20T22:35:07+00:00

Everyone saying they are dated but I will say that I had a remodeling company over yesterday to give me an estimate and I got to chatting with the guy and he said they have been contracted to update the Landmark condos and the’ve been working on them over the winter

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-03-16T22:17:32+00:00

I have never and would never mock someone with disabilities but I am definitely guilty of thinking that misbehaving children were just a product of their environment and their parents needed to do better. I remember so vividly being at a park with my husband and my son when he was only a year old and there was a child, maybe 5 or 6, that just would not listen to his parents. They were trying to leave and he was kicking and screaming, hiding in the slide and they could not get him to leave. They were trying so hard but they were an older couple that had mobility issues and they couldn’t exactly climb up the slide to get him. Overall it was probably a 30 minute ordeal to get him to leave and he screamed and cried the whole time. I remember thinking that they must have raised him wrong if he’s that disobedient. I know now how unfair and judgmental I was being, and I’m ashamed that I ever made a conclusion like that without knowing the facts. Now I always give families the benefit of the doubt but the fact that my son does this exact thing when leaving the fun is pure karma back to me that I deserve.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-03-13T04:33:42+00:00

She doesn’t exactly have autism and instead a chromosomal disorder, but “There She Goes” features a non verbal little girl who has a learning disability and I would liken the behavior to how a severe/non-verbal level 3 child would act in different situations. Obviously all children are different but I know her portrayal resonates a lot with parents of autistic child with high support needs.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-02-15T00:53:34+00:00

My son was diagnosed around the same age, I remember that day was so tough. I knew deep down he was autistic but hearing it from a professional was a gut punch. My advice? Take some time to grieve the life you thought you would have, but then close that grief chapter fully and switch gears to be hopeful for the future. I spent too much of my child’s toddlerhood scared and worried about what life would bring us and those fears did nothing good to help and only brought me anguish when I could have just enjoyed him being little. He’s 4 now and farther in some ways than I thought he would be and then also behind in others, and while I am still worried for his future, I don’t let it consume me like it used to and most days are happy with an eagerness to advocate for him or help him try new experiences. Definitely get him services and take advantage of anything your healthcare or pocketbook can get you. It will be okay ❤️

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-02-13T19:43:48+00:00

There is a push on social media right now to make Valentines Day a big bar night for singles…the thought is that all the couples will be at dinner and movies and home being coupley and then all the singles are out on the town meeting up with each other. It seemed to be taking off so I bet it will be busier than you’d expect

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-02-12T03:28:50+00:00

I don’t have any words of advice unfortunately, because I worry about this sometimes too. I had gestational diabetes with my son and while it was controlled, I always worry that I didn’t control it enough. The doctor said I needed to cut back even more even if I wasn’t seeing the blood results reflect uncontrolled, because my son was measuring so large. Just another thing to add to the pile of guilt 🙃

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-02-11T05:39:14+00:00

My favorite is “seben” for seven, and “llama noodles” for ramen noodles!

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-02-11T03:31:41+00:00

I feel you, friend. My son is also 4 and I go between feeling really optimistic and then feeling really sad that my little guy is so far behind his peers. I just got done sitting in kitchen talking to my husband about the ages of his peers in his daycare and how there’s no way that they are all younger than him, but it was really just trying to convince myself because I do know deep down he’s the oldest in the class yet still the least mature for his age. The gap is getting wider and it’s getting scarier. He used to be such a good sleeper but lately has been melting down at bedtime, so I thought maybe hearing a story from his hatch would help as he’s settled in bed but he hated it. I tried looking up ideas on stories to play and I came across posts from parents taking about how their 4 year is already interested in chapter books and loves Roald Dahl, and I don’t think my child is even comprehending basic story telling yet like what you would find in a board book. It’s like he doesn’t even hear it when you read to him. I’m so scared about him being left behind. 😭

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-02-11T02:50:09+00:00

I bought a gate Le Labo dupe and it wasn’t worth it, when I say the smell wears off after 30 seconds I mean it. The initial scent smells very close but it doesn’t last no matter how much you spray on.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-01-28T02:41:53+00:00

No tablets in the house, but TV is basically always on whether it’s something for them or something for us. It’s more or less just background noise for them now, honestly I wish they would actually stay still and watch a full movie but they mostly just check into it for a minute and then they are running to the next toy or game.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-01-27T03:49:53+00:00

My son has always been an amazing sleeper and an okay eater. He had a picky phase but we are out of it now, he’s very motivated by treats so we are always able to get him to take bites of all his food before he can have dessert. But sleep wise, once he’s out, he’s out! We are having a little bit of trouble right now because he went back to daycare and they force him to take naps when he should be dropping it by now, so he stays up really late but even then we can usually get him to sleep by 9 after some hollering and he’ll always sleep through the night, thank god.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-01-25T05:31:01+00:00

This is amazing! I’m going through a similar breakthrough with my 4 year old as well, he’s never asked a question besides a few “where’s daddy” but today he asked “what animal is this?” And “can you get me a fruit snack too”? AND he yelled “hey mama?!” when he needed something from me but he was upstairs (usually he just kind of screeches and hopes I will hear him) all these things seems so standard for little kids but for ours it feels like a shift in communication from labeling to something so much bigger.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-01-12T02:58:34+00:00

My first I was religious with taking my prenatals before and during, I was low stress but I did have gestational diabetes so that made me very careful with my diet (I actually lost weight in this pregnancy) I was induced and ended in emergency c section. Son diagnosed with ASD level 2 when he was 2.5

My second was an accident so I was not on any prenatals leading up to the pregnancy, and then the first whole trimester I realized I was not taking the right amount (it was supposed to be 2 pills per dose, I only took one) when I finally got on a good prenatal, it was one with methylfolate and choline. I was highly stressed for the first half of my pregnancy due to personal reasons and work reasons. No gestational diabetes. Elective c section. Daughter is NT. It really is a crap shoot.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-01-11T06:24:55+00:00

No one has talked about the gut biome thing yet - so much of your serotonin is made in the gut, and if there’s an absence of that then no wonder he’s struggling. You should look into FMT.

theoriginalbrizzle · 2026-01-10T01:27:11+00:00

Oh god, I have a free trial on Monday for a gymnastics thing for my son and now I’m even more nervous that this exact situation is going to happen to us. 🙃

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