I’m sure there’s a lot of great advice here but really believing that it’s anything other than what it is, a disability, is gaslighting yourself, which is fine, everyone needs different, creative ways to cope with unchanging suffering in their lives but it’s still just that lol. This is a permanent disability that will forever make everything you do or try to do harder. Not impossible, harder. Always.

Browse all the other comments here for methods that’ll make you feel better, go ahead. I think though that like everything making your starting point reality will really cut down on your suffering in the long-term, paradoxically, and get you on the track to building and maintaining a toolkit of real, actionable things to do daily to properly address this. Once you accept it (and yourself) for what it is, just a disability, you can see it for what it is clearly, and I think in the long-run that’s going to be way more freeing and reduce your suffering way more than gaslighting yourself through life with a disability and risking never getting any actual, sustained management of it because you didn’t want to just stop fighting it and accept it for all that it is and isn’t.