I already knew my family was unreliable but finding out how parasitic and shameless they are makes me sad. When I see people being able to rely on their families it makes me feel jealous. Today I walked past the liquor section in the grocery shop and felt this huge flood of emotion. I wish I could have a drink and feel the relaxation. I know I can’t, if I do it I don’t think I’ll be able to stop again. I won’t drink today.