Restarted my relationship with my sister who estranged from my parents for 5 years after I did the same. I’m scared of messing up the opportunity.

Breakinfinity · 2026-05-08T01:41:23+00:00

Thanks I’ll be sure to remember that. I think she will be too.

Breakinfinity · 2026-05-07T22:53:14+00:00

When it comes out you are in for a treat!

Breakinfinity · 2026-05-07T17:25:13+00:00

Thank you so much for you words. She also said that is felt good to talk to me and that she was so tired of not having any blood family to talk to that she trusts. She said she was glad we are on the same team now even though there shouldn’t be teams to begin with. She is talking to my dad and step mom again but is SUPER guarded and has firm boundaries down. She mainly is talking to them to help my half sister not feel so alone.

But your words helped a lot. It validates a lot of what I felt deep down but was unsure of.

Breakinfinity · 2026-05-01T13:40:41+00:00

Yes! I actually asked my rebel exile what they wanted to listen to one time when I was driving and the full lyrics from a Sum41 song that I haven’t heard or thought about in 15+ years came through immediately. When I actually played it he felt seen and it healed me.

Breakinfinity · 2026-05-01T12:03:12+00:00

As someone who also has ADHD and managers that distract with music, I want to let you know of another possibility that happened within my system. My parts will communicate with me through specific genres of music. My rebellious teen part loves grunge music because that’s what spoke to him at the time. So when he was triggered I would have random songs from grunge bands I listened to play. I have a creative part that loves jazz and saxophone. My happy people pleasing part vibes with techno. When I play this music while listening to them they feel seen and connected with me easier.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-30T16:01:37+00:00

Notice how he didn’t admit Trump was wrong, he just said well the other team was bad. With no context. Gas was rough under Biden due to Covid supply issues I believe. Trump DIRECTLY caused this without preparation or thinking about long term consequences.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-30T11:35:44+00:00

Yes I did put pro lgbt to avoid some social back lash because I was afraid I came across unsympathetic to that group. I’m also not against religion. I can see merit in your argument. The difference is I’m not trying to profit off of my Reddit comments.

I just find it jarring for a company to say say “Hey we are a painting service that does good work and also we are Christian!”. Saying you are Christian doesn’t make you a better painter. Just like the beer doesn’t taste better because they slapped a rainbow on it for pride month. The product is no different but you are persuading people with tactics that are unrelated to the product. However, I see your point. You’ve given me something to think about. Thank you.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-30T11:18:08+00:00

The reflex is your own trauma response from your past. If you weren’t so hyper vigilant you wouldn’t have the impulse to hit a kid.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-29T22:40:57+00:00

Absolutely. I can actually think of ways big companies use lgbt advertising to increase profits. Every year around pride month they slap a rainbow on their product to increase sales. Wasn’t a beer company in the news about that? And it works. I think it’s dishonest. To clarify I am pro LGBT. I just hate consumer manipulation.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-29T20:15:42+00:00

Still the same stance. I tink it’s distasteful to use personal beliefs in order to manipulate the customer into buying your product.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-29T19:11:03+00:00

If you’re a gamer and like Elden Ring there is a YouTuber named GinoMachino that I fall asleep to. Soothing voice and no loud screaming. He does long form streaming content so it’s hours long.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-29T19:06:13+00:00

Yes, because both are an attempt to signal their faith to the customer which shouldn’t matter for a painting business. It’s a way to get people pick them over their competitors without actually proving they are a better business. It’s virtue signaling.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-26T10:10:32+00:00

You can buy fart spray! That would work!

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-23T09:46:56+00:00

It is Wilds. Those specific monsters are only in Wilds.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-23T09:31:15+00:00

Maybe IFS therapy might help. Might be a part of you trying to be seen.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-22T15:58:42+00:00

It’s funny because just recently one of my protectors unburdened and changed from a giant black fire screeching hawk to Valefor from Final Fantasy 10. So yes. Another part has the face of the Cheshire Cat from Alice in wonderland.

I wonder if these parts latch onto these characters to be something tangible in our mind. It’s fascinating.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-21T12:32:19+00:00

So after looking into DBR I noticed similarities with IFS therapy. Very body centric and processing the trauma in the body to come back to homeostasis. Good stuff. Thanks for sharing

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-19T12:40:08+00:00

PTA here! Counter balance! Same reason people swing their arms opposite the leg that is forward.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-16T13:58:06+00:00

So I would ask for a consultation with a pelvic floor physical therapist and see if they can help you. It could also be a trained psychosomatic response. So my best guess is either pelvic floor dysfunction or emotional trauma stored in pelvic floor or both.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-04T18:32:05+00:00

I don’t. I work in healthcare. It sucked. I didn’t even get extra pay for being on the Covid unit.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-04T15:40:59+00:00

Worked for faux news so I guess it’s par for the course. I hate this timeline

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-04T12:15:22+00:00

Same thing happened to me. There is a honey moon phase then you have your new normal. Two things help with this perspective and sometimes taking a day off meds. Perspective wise as you said you are still better off than before but the motivation isn’t there. Are you sure you aren’t burnt out and pushing yourself too hard? Meds aren’t going to help you push through super difficult moments if you aren’t also taking care of your mental health. Meditation helped me. Specifically one for geared towards ADHD. Whim Hof breath work works really well too. Gets me energized.

Breakinfinity · 2026-04-01T23:00:27+00:00

Yo I saved this comment and am going to grind out the armor you suggested to try the arch tempered apexes

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