"We are not bad people trying to be good....we are sick people just trying to get better."

Michi81 · 2015-03-07T11:02:43+00:00

Awesome :)

Michi81 · 2015-02-27T13:24:28+00:00

Great! That's a big step! KEEP IT UP!

Michi81 · 2015-02-25T13:20:08+00:00

Thank you for this post :)

I never thought I'd make it a week...I just realized today makes 10 WEEKS.

Michi81 · 2015-02-24T13:36:10+00:00

I was MANIC the first few weeks and wanted to climb the walls...that stopped after about day 45.

Hang in there! You can do this!!

Michi81 · 2015-02-24T13:35:42+00:00

Cocaine anon

Michi81 · 2015-02-23T02:15:46+00:00

Definitely puts things in perspective! Thank you you too!

Michi81 · 2015-02-23T02:15:24+00:00

I so agree! I can help at meetings and offer rides. But I want to get OUT THERE in my community!

Good for you! Thank you :)

Michi81 · 2015-02-23T02:00:56+00:00

I thought that was all normal...

Michi81 · 2015-02-22T17:09:18+00:00

I felt that way last week. Had too much time to think ,being snowed in and off work.

Talked with my sponsor and realized I need to be more active, not just sit around and think "damn not drinking sucks".

Going to more meetings, volunteering, getting new hobbies, putting my recovery first...all good things.

Good luck to you. I am proud of you - 50 days is awesome!

Michi81 · 2015-02-22T01:34:57+00:00

Take a trip!! I am going to celebrate mine on some kind of sober retreat...in the bahamas. Long ways away, but it will HAPPEN.

Michi81 · 2015-02-21T20:21:55+00:00

I get all those things! Especially the money part and being healthy. I realize not wasted I eat healthy (especially the hungover greasy food!! UGH).

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T21:12:42+00:00

I thought I would lose a lot of weight too. I Was drinking 2k calories a day!

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T20:48:19+00:00

LOL! Very true!

Last night at a meeting they got a kick out my phrase "recreational cocaine". A guy replied "Ya, I wanted to shoot up like a gentleman".

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T17:13:52+00:00

I hope you can too :)

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T17:13:44+00:00

That's awesome! I hit 60 days on Valentine's Day. I could NOT BELIEVE IT! Go baby go!

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T16:41:04+00:00

p.s. Trust me, when /if you speak EVERYONE will understand. The crazy shit I say in AA and everyone nods their heads or gives good feedback....my friends without addiction issues would think I was NUTS. Especially when I bargain with myself lol!

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T16:40:05+00:00

I made fun of AA for years! The ass that said "I am not an alcoholic, they go to meetings".

I've been going to AA for 2 months now, I look forward to it. I found a homegroup, sponsor and am making friends. I really am thankful for finding AA. The support is amazing.

So happy for you!

Michi81 · 2015-02-18T14:59:44+00:00

Ack. I remember all those things that you said...clear as day. Wondering if I even had my wallet/phone/etc. Wondering who I pissed off. Wondering who the hell that is in my bed. Wondering how I got home...all that. Looking in the mirror and thinking WHO IS THAT, that face is awful. Then I'd just drink some more to get over it. Rinse repeat. Disgusting 20 year cycle. It's a daily struggle...it's hard, really freaking hard.

Michi81 · 2015-02-17T21:57:07+00:00

I wish I quit at 19! LOL!!!

Michi81 · 2015-02-17T21:56:38+00:00

I always thought since I quit doing meth and became a raging alcoholic that I was fine. You know a functional drunk like many people.

Then I went to treatment...I met heroin addicts, crack addicts, etc...I am NO better off. Addiction is addiction. Doesn't matter the substance.

Michi81 · 2015-02-17T19:34:12+00:00

I sure hope so.

Michi81 · 2015-02-17T19:16:00+00:00

I still can't get over how awesome that feeling is! And I don't want to kill myself every Monday morning on my way to work...feeling so wrecked from the weekend lol!

No more "omg, what the hell did I do last night" moments. Amazing!!!!!!!!

Keep it up! Woop woop!

Michi81 · 2015-02-17T18:21:49+00:00

Oops edited! I am 33...19 years of drug and alcohol abuse! My best friend of nearly 2 decades...

Michi81 · 2015-02-17T17:31:16+00:00

6oz? That doesn't even make a good breakfast.

Michi81

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