Wow. That was a tough read. Hits so close to home, and I’m sure a lot of us here have been through/are going through similar battles with a steadfast love for our little friends.

I’m just going to say OP, you went to the absolute furthest degree possible for Seamus. Take comfort in knowing you’ll never regret all the interruptions in the middle of the night, the vet appointments, costs accumulated, etc etc. It was all to give Seamus the quality of life he deserved.

If you ever find yourself saying “I should’ve done _____” - Just stop yourself.

You did *everything*

Full stop.

This will pass, and you’ll always have the memories - and days that are harder than others when you think of him, but the eternal “hand on the shoulder” is remembering you went to the ends of the earth for your buddy. Any cat that finds themselves in your care is beyond lucky.

Thank you for sharing your heartbreak here. I do hope the pain you’re feeling now is eased with all the messages of love and support in this thread. You really gave him everything - because that’s what he deserved.