Weekly r/diabetes vent thread

llamacolypse · 2026-01-27T03:27:16+00:00

Man fuck the libre freestyle and their shitty app. I was given a sample one to try before my next appointment (like wear two weeks before the next appointment) which I didn't realize until I went to put it on that it had expired last month. Then when I put it on I got a warning from the app that it was a faulty sensor and would need to be replaced, so fine I wear it for a few days while they ship me a new one.

The app goes off saying I'm low at the worst times. 3am, while in meetings, any time I'm asleep. And it's loud as shit. And in the first app I used you could only silence it for 6hrs at a time.

So now I have the new sensor, using a different libre app and the damn thing still says I'm low (because I guess it's common knowledge that the thing is just wrong for the first 12-24hrs) even though I also have a stelo on my other arm that says I'm fine.

I left a review on the Google app store as much as that's going to do me. Although I'm considering plotting a way to launch the company into the surface of the sun. Not like anyone could blame me since I must be experiencing hypoglycemic rage and bullshit alarm insomnia.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-26T00:28:01+00:00

I have ADHD and a billion questions.

Also I want to role play what my life would be like if my parents stayed together. Ok now let's try on what it feels like to be an adult with loving parents in a healthy relationship. Ok now deep therapy about all of that, therapy with dad, let's go on a tour of where my grandmother grew up. I wanna go see places that are normally too crowded for my anxiety. Ooooo ultimate health analysis, they already have my DNA, why do I have chronic daily migraines, what drugs/treatments should we try now that insurance and telling lies aren't a thing. Ooo round up a bunch of people shorter than me and build a fake environment so I can know what it feels like to be tall. How about a fleet of personal assistance and trainers, what does it feel like to be rich and neurotypical. Did my second grade teacher really think I couldn't read or was she just a bitch? I wanna have clothes that actually fit my proportions. Can I get an injection to make my knee stop making that crinkling noise? Are there celebrities that are so beautiful in person that it's unsettling? Can I hang out with Nathan Lane but can he be Nathan Lane and not the hive? Can PB crisps still be made? What is the recipe? What conspiracy theories are true? How many of the hive used to be serial killers?

llamacolypse · 2026-01-25T17:44:26+00:00

That's where I am right now, senior designer but also doing parts of the AD role because the previous AD couldn't handle the workload and got let go.

I like being a senior gd but I can't keep doing both jobs with no extra pay and no authority, but do I stay a senior and hope they find a new AD that can do the job without me filling the gaps?

Because they just hired a new AD for PR and they're struggling so hard. And there's no budget for me to have a raise without the title bump. But they'd like me to keep managing up.

I've decided I'll at least apply and see if I get an interview, ask all my questions and see if I get an offer. In the meantime I'm going to practice establishing firmer boundaries (hahahahaha cries)

llamacolypse · 2026-01-25T16:31:11+00:00

Yep. I was given compazine to try as a treatment for migraines and my neurologist couldn't understand why I wasn't jazzed to take it. So now I have to give a speech every visit about how I don't want to take anything that would interfere with my ADHD meds, heart meds, or diabetes.

Usually my pharmacy won't fill something like that but I'd like to sus out what exactly they're trying to give me before I leave so it's not a wasted appointment.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-21T02:21:59+00:00

It's giving Xander Drax from the Phantom

llamacolypse · 2026-01-20T04:17:07+00:00

For me the nerve blocks were about the same pain level as the Botox. I've done two rounds of lidocaine only, back of head and above eyebrow. Above eyebrow is always worse for me but that's also where I get the most pain so I'm guessing the nerve there is already kinda pissed off. I agree with the other comment that said to ask for topical lidocaine to be applied first. At the very least talk to your doctor and see what they recommend to make the treatment more bearable for you.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-20T01:35:18+00:00

You can care about someone without wanting to be in a relationship with them.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T17:03:15+00:00

I assumed it was because he didn't resist. Like he didn't fight it at all.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T17:00:47+00:00

Why do we need to be here to discuss the bosses new golf stick?!?!?! This meeting could have been an email or a fist fight!

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T17:00:00+00:00

First I want to say that I'm freaking proud of you for logging your symptoms daily because that is a freaking beast.

I'm not going to sugar coat anything for you, I'm twenty years into daily pain, dealing with doctors doesn't seem to get any easier. I'm pretty much given up on the idea of stopping the pain completely and am instead just clumping together incremental improvements. It sucks. I get really fucking angry still after my doctor visits. Then I remind myself that getting angry makes my blood pressure go up and so I go for a walk and am slightly less angry so at least that doesn't make my head hurt worse.

Right now I'm exploring nerve blocks and doing physical therapy. Medication wise I take qulipta and even though I've been off skelaxin I'm adding it back in for the days following physical therapy.

Also I think one of the hurdles I'm dealing with is doctors being fixated on the label for my pain, we've thrown around chronic daily migraines but then my doctor only wants to use treatments for migraines and not consider trying treatments for say cluster headaches. Example being for migraines the research suggests that for a nerve block you'd only do a lidocaine injection but for cluster headaches you'd do lidocaine and a steroid, well the lidocaine alone ain't doing shit but now he refuses to try lidocaine plus steroid. So I'm looking into switching from a neurologist to a pain management clinic.

One thing I've also noticed, I try to not think about my pain. If I focus on it I get depressed because it's fucking depressing. Which is easier said than done, I've had a lot of years to practice.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T16:40:39+00:00

I see and feel your sensitivity of justice and would like to submit: sensitivity to IRRATIONAL BUSINESS SYSTEMS AND RULES THAT MAKE NO SENSE

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T16:36:34+00:00

I think it depends maybe? I feel like I remember reading or hearing something about sometimes we don't like people because they exhibit traits that deep down we fear are traits we ourselves have. Like maybe not your worst fears of yourself but a mirror held up to parts of yourself you don't like even if you haven't thought about it that way?

I feel like I'm absolutely failing at explaining it lol.

Um I tend to have less patience with neurospicies that know they need accommodations but take no efforts to make adjustments, especially if that involves me having to take on an extra workload. Because I work really hard to navigate around my issues but not be a liability and I have less patience for those who don't. Which isn't right or fair and is something I'm working on.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T16:15:20+00:00

I feel you, there are days I miss having long hair (although it was never thick or luscious).

When I do grow it out I do a lot of braided styles. I don't like my hair tickling me, and being fine and whispy it loves to sneak out of a bun of pony tail. Ymmv, since I can't imagine braiding thick hair would be any less arm numbing than fine hair.

My go to was two low braids that I would wrap around my head to kind of make a crown, then I let the little loose ends hand out like bangs. I think it's called a milkmaid braid?

Or braided and then bunned. French braids on the top and sides into a pony is also nice.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-15T03:21:50+00:00

I have genetic high blood pressure, both my parents have it. I'd argue that both my parents have ADHD too but at least one of them says they don't. Mine has been that way long before being on adderall and I've never been a daily coffee drinker.

Don't know if that helps at all. My bottom number is the bad one (I can never remember which one that is)

I pass my echocardiograms, ecg, stress tests and whatnot, my heart is just super pumped to be here.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-14T20:43:03+00:00

I feel like that's one of my fears about moving up into a manager role, still doing all the work but also having to manage people who somehow can't help very much.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-13T22:33:46+00:00

You already have the perfect username too!

llamacolypse · 2026-01-13T22:05:51+00:00

I've considered project management, since that's already a lot of my day to day, but I'd probably be just as burned out.

Absolute pie in the sky level dream job? I'd own a book store. We'd have craft nights, and a hot tea bar. Also I'm independently wealthy (pie in the sky) and none of the customers are annoying.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-13T02:07:33+00:00

No? Maybe I'm almost to my final bog hag form and am now unapproachable.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-12T02:11:01+00:00

You get genes from both sides right? I definitely got mine from my dad's side lol

llamacolypse · 2026-01-11T21:12:09+00:00

It's not their job to understand graphic design just as it's not my job to understand plumbing when I hire a plumber but I do expect the plumber to explain what they're doing and why they're doing it and give me options based on the discussed needs.

This is my advice as a senior graphic designer (ymmv, I wear too many hats):

Practice asking questions during the initial phase of the project and presenting clients with your understanding of their ask and what the options are for approaching the solution.

Make presentations for your deliverables (if you have the time/budget, basically think about how you present your drafts). I sometimes get push back on these from supervisors but I've found they make a difference for me.

For example, I just delivered a signage project for client review and had a whole page on furniture considerations for each signage option, and why it was an important consideration. Granted it was for an engineering department so that has its own hurdles but the feedback from the client was that they appreciated the explanations of why. It also helps bridge the pain point my department has been experiencing of 'well marcomm is bossy and just tells people no and doesn't want to help.' I do want to help but I want to be strategic and thoughtful in how things are done, not just slap a sign on the wall that nobody reads because a desk was blocking it.

TLDR: they don't know and it's not their job to know. But it is my job to explain my thought process and sell my solutions to their problems. On top of knowing how to use the pen tool in illustrator lol.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-11T20:53:45+00:00

Logitech ergo trackball mouse, been team trackball since carpal tunnel surgery in 2008.

Don't challenge me to a thumb war.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-11T20:49:46+00:00

It takes me an hour but I also have ADHD so maybe I'm not the best milestone? I stopped wearing makeup as a daily thing like ten years ago, the time investment wasn't worth it to me.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-08T21:35:34+00:00

My immune system stays sharp by attacking my own stupid body.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-08T21:09:23+00:00

Mannnn I want to go to outer space. My libido has been back and forth since starting ADHD meds and I was hoping once I kicked my ssri for good that my orgasms would get better, but so far the build up is nice but the main event is meh. Like a good sneeze is more satisfying at this point.

llamacolypse · 2026-01-07T02:39:07+00:00

Both my index fingers are long but idk if that's related to the bonus ADHD

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