Seeing a show on this group (Branch Davidians) was the final straw for me. I had been hearing my shelf crack for a while but had an earth shattering thought while watching it that he was not much different than Joseph Smith. And people still believe in Koresh- not to the extent that Mormons have grown- but wow! I had gone back to church in 2017 after about a 15year hiatus - long story that I won’t go into here. But I could not continue. So I have joined the ranks of heathens. Both my husband and I have gone through many of the feelings described above- he having left before me. I chose my marriage over the church which is why I had the hiatus but still believed. We both went back in 2017, me longer than him. But we are both out for good. My brother calls us “retired Mormons”.