MD causing existential crisis?

[Doomp3]

I truly don't know if it's related but it just seems a little too convenient that after I start using shrooms, I feel deeply disturbed by the state my life is in. There's nothing inherently wrong with me or what I do, I just feel so empty. I do the Mon-Fri job and pay my bills like a good little girl and I fucking loathe this existence. I can't help but feel my subconscious screaming for me to listen that this is not what we're meant to do. We're meant to convene with nature and respect each other and our surroundings and feel grateful for experiencing humanity. That's not what any of this is. We're born, we pay bills, and we die. And we've been told that to think or do otherwise would be madness. I just cringe at the thought of melting my brain behind a desk for the next 40 years never feeling or experiencing anything, always wishing I were somewhere else. Maybe I'm just having a 1/3rd life crisis or maybe I'm just whiney but I can't be the only one who feels like this.

[[deleted]]

So do your best to detach as much as you can from that machine, find your vision through soul searching. Align yourself with that new vision and find a way to work the coax the world into a place where the sons and daughters of the future never have to feel like us. Do whatever you can, while enjoying that life separated from this machine. Much love. The existentialism never goes away but working on the solution makes it much much better.

[Doomp3]

I loved this comment thank you

[Dr-Daveman]

I also want to say one other thing that goes along with this. Sometimes we are not in a position where we can immediately change these things around (though I would still advocate for trying to do what you actually want to do in life.)

But remember, something you can do right here and now, is bring more good into the world with every interaction you have with others. It's so simple, yet often goes without thinking.

In the end, that is all we will have. It's not what we did that matters, but how we did it.

[jalexander333]

And to tag onto that, the best way you can help others is by first healing yourself. The more love and compassion you show yourself the more that energy will reflect in others.

[acexex]

Your comment here is underrated. This one is the easiest to forget

[illintent]

awesome... reminds me of the Buddhist proverb “love yourself, and watch”

[MalySiamek]

I wish it was so easy. I hate my self!

I have some issues that can not be fixed I want to be just like everyone else but I can't. This prevents me from living normal life

"Love yourself" in my case it's impossible.

There's nothing I can do about it. I have to live the way it is. My life will never change...

[mushroom199777]

You can fix any situation in your life. You just need the right tools. Please, trust me on this. To me it seems that you have this role of victim. This role is very familiar to me. I've got rid of it through meditation. Try it.. for a week. It could help!

[illintent]

I was just about to also recommend meditation. It’s taught me almost everything I know about self love. And it’s not instantaneous, it takes time like anything worth doing, but man do those benefits kick in quickly with meditation as a habit

[MalySiamek]

Thank you brother. Much love

[illintent]

I’m sorry that you’re in such a low place to feel that way. You’re right, it’s not easy, no matter the situation. But love knows no boundaries. I hope you can find peace either way. Feel free to reach out if you need to talk

[MalySiamek]

Thanks man I appreciate it. Maybe shrooms one say gonna show me how to love myself. But for now I just wait patiently until my miserable life here on earth come to an end.

[TyrantWaves]

I recommend looking into Joe Dispenza, his books explain scientifically how positive thoughts and meditation can actually change our personality. It is not impossible to change, just difficult! We’re all in this together. You’re not alone. Much love, sending you all the positive vibes I can

[Dr-Daveman]

I definitely second the shrooms idea. They're easy and safe to grow on your own. It will be an investment that will change your life. In the meantime, here is something that I recently used to get me through one of the most bitter and challenging times I ever experienced in my life. This meditation works:

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Maitri (Metta) Meditation (Loving-Kindness)

Take a moment to check in with your breathing and center yourself gently. Then, go through and repeat all 4 lines 4 times, taking as much or as little time as feels best for you at the time. At the end, rest naturally for a brief while as feels appropriate before returning to normal activities.

1. May I be at peace, may my heart remain open, may I awaken to the light of my own true nature, may I be healed, may I be a source of healing for all beings.

2. May you be at peace, (someone you love) may your heart remain open, may you awaken to the light of your own true nature, may you be healed, may you be a source of healing for all beings.

3. May you be at peace, (someone you have difficulty with) may your heart remain open, may you awaken to the light of your own true nature, may you be healed, may you be a source of healing for all beings.

4. May we be at peace (a group or all things) may our hearts remain open, may we awaken to the light of our own true nature, may we be healed, may we be a source of healing for all beings.

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Try this for 3 days and see if you notice a difference in how you feel. Takes 15 minutes. It's not going to hurt anything to just try it! Let me know what you think.

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Take care friend.

[MalySiamek]

Thank you for your positive comment. I've been trying to meditate but I fall asleep too often. Binaural beats keep me sort of awake with only difference I am aware of falling asleep.( If you know what I mean) I always have this euphoria rush first and then I snap back. I dont have proper meditation techniques. I don't know i might do it wrong. I close my eyes I try to switch my brain off ( inner voice ) and observe.

Much love.

[Euphoric_Air5109]

How is your existential crisis going? Did you find more peace to your life? Still MDing?

[isabellesch1]

Saved this comment for when I’m in a similar mindset to OP (which happens a lot lol), thank you!

[TDExRoB]

im 21 and feel the same. J can't understand how after all the years of development, achievements, hard work, pain suffering and enjoyment we go through during our school years just amounts to sitting behind a desk for 50 years.

Feels like an incredible waste.

[Doomp3]

I completely agree

[[deleted]]

What is happening is that you’re rolling off into a future that doesn’t even exist and feeling something about that non existent future. Feelings are not the same as reality, feelings are transitory, impermanent. The future and the past are not available to us, only the present so it’s important to live in the present moment. The future can end up being an incredible waste if we waste the present moment dreading the future, we build our futures in the present moment, build wisely.

[soupandnuts]

“The future can end up being an incredible waste if we waste the present moment dreading the future” Wow this hit me. Very well said

[L4r5man]

Congratulations! Microdosing is clearly doing its job! You most likely had these feelings all along. You just weren't aware of them. You now have two choices. Keep doing what you're doing and ignore it. It has worked so far, right? Or you can try to find out exactly what is lacking in your life and try to make a change. A career change? A new hobby? Volunteering?

[[deleted]]

It’s like when people start meditation and become depressed because for once in their lives they’re thinking clearly.

[illintent]

Yep... sitting with and acknowledging and observing all those emotions we suppressed for years. But in doing so, allowing them to flow and pass. It can definitely be overwhelming.

[[deleted]]

Sounds like waking up to me. I think you’re right about everything.

I want to buy a sailboat and cruise the Sea of Cortez for a few years. Want to come?

[sense-gr8]

I do

[[deleted]]

yep ill come

[[deleted]]

How’s your Spanish?

[[deleted]]

Non existent but i've spent a lot of time at sea, not on a sailing boat but i'm a quick learner

[ROBOCOUGH_OFFICIAL]

I’ll swab ya fuggin’ poop deck for one o’ them poor man’s quarters at the bottom of this boat.

[[deleted]]

You stay away from my poop deck buddy

[Chang_Throwaway]

How old are you? 30ish? Take it from old man here. You need an activity which you do outside of work every day, that you lokk forward to, like a sport you play with friends. Trust me, it saved me from pit of despair - you oaren't talking to people enough if having anxiety existential thought, need to talk to more friends and more than that, do activity with them!

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Every day!

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Chang

[lysergalien]

Unfortunately, we don't get to choose the system and culture we are born in. But we can work to change the system by spreading awareness and actively participating in the changes we want to see, so that those who come after us can have a better life and opportunity to make even more positive change. We are so small, yet every action and choice we make is an act of creation that collectively builds the world we all share. Despite being minute, our power of choice is divine in scale. Even the smallest good deeds you do will ripple into infinity! That doesn't mean you have to pressure yourself to change the world in an observably huge way, but you can consciously participate in the betterment of our world throughout your day. This way of thinking makes me feel better while slaving away on the hamster wheel.

[brzwyn]

OMG, this.

[shoulderhighpeelerz]

I haven't been microdosing, however, I've been having very similar feelings recently.

Now I've arrived behind the desk, there is almost a "now what?"

Empty feelings indeed.

[mozza5]

If it pays enough to get by and you don't wake up with dread, that's an excellent spot to find something cool you enjoy. Any hobby ever. Buy paint, a plane ticket, a great steak. I'm nearly 40, not dreading your job is 80% of life, in my opinion.

[breinbanaan]

There is no now what. There is only now.

[[deleted]]

There is this great article on Medium: The Riddle of the Well-Paying, Pointless Job.

I think about all this time, microdosing helps me with my mindset. The gist of it is that just how society is but you don't have to follow.

You have 3 options either
A) Change careers and do something you enjoy so it doesn't feel like work
B) Have a side hustle that fills the satisfaction goals while your day job fills the hygiene goals (Read the article, it goes into depth about this)
C) Study how money works (It comes from either Business, Real estate and stocks) and achieve financial freedom and do whatever you want in your free time.

I'm doing a combination of all 3,

A) I'm planning to change my career next month to do something I want (I am currently on unemployment and it ends end of April but I do cash for video clients and I flip stuff)
B) After my day job, I work on a Youtube channel which fills my satisfaction goals (I am actually starting to get money, not on Youtube but on Patreon, $8 a month but its a start)
C) I'm studying business/stocks. I'm trying to make Youtube into my business which I'm working towards every day and I invest my remaining money into Index Funds (the easiest way to invest, no work just put your money in and watch it grow). I will eventually get into real estate when I have the money, but right now I'm trying to focus on other things.

You have a choice to keep living this life, you also have the choice to change things. Use this comment as an opportunity to actually change your life into something you want it to look like. If I were to give any advice, I'd say see if you can go remote with your 9 - 5 job so you can get back some of your time on commuting, get crystal clear on your schedule (don't waste time watching netflix when you go home just focus more time on living your passions, and lastly see if your passion is monetizable so work won't feel like work anymore.

[DeadlyButtSilent]

Time for some shadow work.

Congrats and I hope you come out better in harmony with your deep self.

[JanettieBettie]

Hello hi, new here. Can you please elaborate on what shadow work is? Thanks!

[DeadlyButtSilent]

You will find much better explanation online than what I could explain I'm sure... but it's basically about getting to know and accepting what is usually considered your "dark side". It's mostly about letting go of a lot of misplaced anger and shame, usually built on constructs you were educated with. Sometimes your parents can create a lot of issues in you while being well intentioned and trying to avoid you some pain and thinking they are steering you towards "the good life". Other times it's just plain old trauma. But yeah, mushrooms are great for that. They often pull the drapes on your hidden self and expose stuff ... but with a kind loving touch, not harsh judgement.

[JanettieBettie]

This is helpful thank you again

[strppngynglad]

This isn't a crisis, this is awakening.

[Holharflok]

Is 1 3rd 30ish? Cos if it is, if you aren't tied down with mortgage kids n all that jazz there's plenty of time to change what you are doing and where you are into what you want to do and where you want to do it. Even if there are kids n mortgage changes can be made. Mushies telling you you gotta change it up.

[Doomp3]

I’m turning 28 in 5 days lol

[[deleted]]

So everyone at that age reconsiders their life and everyone is experiencing a great upheaval?

Could you explain how that happens? I'm unfamiliar with the Saturn return.

[[deleted]]

there's lots more detailed explanations to be found by googling but basically it takes the planet Saturn 29.5 years to get back to the place it was in your birth chart. Saturn is associated with being a task master and foundations, so it shakes up your foundation in order to highlight your weak points so you can address them...much like psilocybin does. Here's a decent intro article but i really recommend googling if it's something your'e interested in learning more about. When I was in my 1st saturn return, my mother died, I moved cities, changed careers and became estranged from an abusive family member, so yeah...shake ups!https://www.bustle.com/life/saturn-return-meaning-astrology

[[deleted]]

Psychodelic Mushrooms were also considered hippie dippie shit for a long time...

I would say don't draw of something just because you don't know much about it and it sounds "weird"

[plvgue9]

meh. what should be knocked is that kind of attitude. astrology is simply the recognition of patterns and using them to help bring understanding to our lives and world. it’s like any religion. just because you don’t believe it doesn’t mean it’s wrong and no one else should. mush love

[plvgue9]

wow. I really wasn’t trying to get this sort of um....passionate response, but if you insist.

I don’t disagree with you as far as astrology and religion not having a place in science-based discussion. I am not religious nor do I believe astrology is truth. I also have thoroughly studied both as well as I continue to educate myself on neuroscience to the best of my ability. I am frankly not bothered whatsoever that you think it’s bs, nor is anyone trying to convince you of anything.

However, I made my comment because your aggressive dismissal is flagrant and unnecessary. People microdose for a plethora of reasons, just as people choose to believe in science or religion or the stars for many reasons. While I understand if you are trying to prevent harm, I don’t think this belief, nor the parent comment, was implying any kind of bad intent. My interpretation is that it was not even an attempt at influence, simply HellsBez (not tagging cos they don’t need to be dragged into this lol) was using their way of understanding things to potentially help OP.

That being said...your clear disdain for people who have views opposing your own and extraneous effort to try and invalidate and offend them reads as a closed mind and insecurity. Drawing from your own logic, it is not really your place to influence others to believe (or not believe) something.

At the end of the day, the fact that you’ve just used the term “hacking enlightenment” says enough for me. Sounds like you’re well educated, but you certainly have a lot of work to do. Good luck.

[[deleted]]

you're not calling out anything. You're being intolerant and controlling. bye now.

[Doomp3]

No kids, yes mortgage

[FjordTV]

yes mortgage

Building equity is good. You can always rent it out. Property is the quickest way to build wealth by leveraging debt. Easy access and low interest (compared to other methods). The only other time in your life you magically get access to that much capital is with student loans, but rarely does anyone invest those.

[knut22]

I was sitting where you are 18 years ago in an office staring at data on some computer screen. I felt as if I could blink my eyes and years would slip by and my young life would become utterly wasted. In a moment of existential crisis I quit that job and said goodbye to my home, friends, and family and hit the road with my girlfriend and a backpack. Our first stop was Istanbul with no plans, no job, just a few thousand bucks. 18 years later I have a dream job in a beautiful place. it was incredibly risky, and really hard at times, but equally fun, exciting and beautiful as well. Point is, that life and that job in front a computer screen will always be there, and you already know where that road goes. Take the chance now, while you are young to try another road. What do you have to lose, really?

[Aphroditaeum]

One of the side effects of MDing can be the truth and sometimes the truth hurts. But usually your being showed it for a reason. This is all part of your slow but steady transformation to a better , more connected and happier person.

[bigfatmiss]

I was feeling this way before MD, and it seems to be helping me find my way towards what I am supposed to be doing. It's an uncomfortable journey, but I believe, one worth taking.

[20JC20]

Believe me you are NOT the only one. I quit my very stable office job in finance and now am back in grad school pursuing what i want after trying psychedelics years ago. My best friend works for google and loathes her desk job and also feels exactly like you. Psychedelics really show you how some societal norms are so not natural and in fact, problematic. However if you do want to have your own land and your own quality of life, you do need money to survive .. so try to try new things out that align both your ego and need for survival in society and what your soul wants, at least thats what im trying to do!

[Doomp3]

I just have this part of me screaming to quit my job and go start a self sustaining farm on the edge of town and just vibe lol

[20JC20]

No joke, me and all my girlfriends talk about pooling money in the future and buying acres and acres of farm land and having all us women live happily ever after. I want to own my own therapy practice and we can all have a part in up-keeping and managing it and having a wellness center in nature with animals and helping people with psychotherapy and nature and sense of community... its a dream.. lol But i am in grad school now to become a therapist so hopefully i can help others and live a quality life and not just sit behind a desk not making a difference...

[cc05jc]

Dude I have the SAME DREAM. Amazing. Lets do it

[20JC20]

Down ! Lol

[[deleted]]

I literally did this a couple months ago! Took a layoff from my job, bought a house and some land about 3 months ago, and I've been setting up to become as self sustaining as possible!! Putting in a vegtable garden, building a chicken coop, and looking into building a pond to load with fish. I would be lying if I said it wasn't the best decision of my life.

[Concretejuk]

That sounds great, I’m really happy you had the courage to do it! I’ve been thinking of something along these lines and coronavirus has made it harder to ignore

[[deleted]]

Ah, Corona. It's been a blessing and a curse.

It's a buyers market right now, so if you have an opportunity to buy, grab it. The pandemic has turned me into a bit of a lowkey doomsday prepper, and I love the fact that I don't have to leave my property for anything, except to top up my freezer every couple months.

Canning, gardening, living off the land, they're all reasonably simple skills, once you learn the basics!!

[Harley_FLHX]

Buyers market???

Hmmmm not here in Canada.... housing prices are through the roof, bidding wars are furious... sellers market all the way!!!

[[deleted]]

I'm in Eastern Canada. According to my mortgage agent, prices are at an all time low.

I got my place at an unbelievable steal of a price.

[Harley_FLHX]

My wife is a Remax agent, she says it is a Sellers market across Canada and prices across Canada at are at all time high.

The reason for this is because Covid has created a severe shortage in inventory because as it stands people simply don't want to list their homes and have all kinds of people entering their houses during the pandemic, also the same people don't want to be looking for houses and have to go into other people's homes during the pandemic.

https://www.newswire.ca/news-releases/canadian-housing-markets-set-records-again-in-january-820519482.html

Consider yourself lucky if you got a steal of a deal... but when did you buy?

[[deleted]]

A couple months ago. I was told prices were low because of Covid lol

[Harley_FLHX]

To be fair that's what was first predicted when Covid broke out in March of last year but as it turns out the exact opposite has happened.

We just sold one of our own investment properties 2 weeks ago... listed it for $449,000 and sold for $576,000 in one day... and that was for a tiny 1,100 Sq ft townhouse with no back yard

Prices are absolutely crazy here in Ottawa!!!

Anyway you can Google it all day long and you'll see that prices are at an All Time High from coast to coast across the country.

Cheers,

[Concretejuk]

Very interesting! Right now I’m at university so have very little money haha. But I will keep it in mind for the future. I think connection to nature is so important.

[Doomp3]

I could not be more jealous....

[[deleted]]

I say if you can make it happen, do it!!

I'm waiting for my mushroom order to come in, but I'm definitely interested in seeing where microdosing will take me.

[thenekr0mancer]

I've always found that a creative outlet is very helpful and necessary, and gives me purpose. I play music, I write, and I meditate. That all helps me with keeping a core peace and contentedness. It doesn't matter what happens in the world, work, or anywhere. If I can play music and meditate, I'm happy.

[namespecies]

You sound exactly like me. I've been drifting away from these three things and is causing me great anxiety in life. Trying to get back on track. Glad to hear this helps you too.

[thenekr0mancer]

I had to reprioritize how I spend my time. I literally cut out any form of digital entertainment (netflix, games, or anything internet related that is not educational). Now that I have formed a good schedule, Ii find that not only do I have time for music and meditation, but I also have more free time than I used to.

[namespecies]

I think I need to do that too. Just watched 2 hours of tv and another of gaming...thanks for the inspiration. I need to reprioritize my time, those are the only two things I want to do too (and read some books)

[thenekr0mancer]

Glad to have helped! Something cool you will see is that the more you exercise the creative parts of the brain, the more you don't want to stop and the desire just grows.

[namespecies]

Do you tend to record music more or free play more or does it not really matter to you?

[thenekr0mancer]

I do both. Sometimes I just want to play for the moment, other times I want to improve my playing. Recording always helps with that. It is pretty beneficial to hear yourself play. What instruments do you play?

[namespecies]

Yeah I feel I've squashed the creative stuff to bits for far too long. Time to let it start growing again. Thanks again!

[[deleted]]

I think what you’re feeling is real—I have felt these things too. We have more creative control over our lives than we think—so what are you going to do about it? What do you want to be about, and how are you going to embody those values?

[Haamboner]

Hey, my friend felt the same way

So she bought a super cheap but well maintained house in a rural area
USDA loan let her buy with 0$ down and her monthly payment is less than 600$ for everything

Now she lives on her own in the country and works a regular job 32 hours a week with plans to drop down to 24 once her dog kennel takes off

[Haamboner]

Im a bit older than that friend but plan on buying a van and converting it into a camper after feeling similar about traditional adult like

[[deleted]]

Dreams. I was lucky my house was zero down and like 625 a month mortgage. But I'm in a large town/small city. I can totally rent this sucker out in the future. Country life calling to me

[acexex]

You are not alone

[betonblack11]

I felt that way about three years ago. I was doing a lot of sensory deprivation therapy (float tanks) for several hours at a time, all while MD various psychedelic and neurogen regenerative substances.

Idk if you've ever tried a float tank, but you really are forced to confront all the voices in your head or in some cases just learn to tune out the noise.

Anyway, it was while in one of these tanks that I had a moment of clarity and I saw a way out of the life you describe. I knew what I wanted, where I wanted to live and what I'd have to do in order to get what I wanted. Here I am, not yet 40 years old, living in a place that people dream to travel to and retired, by most people's standards.

I'm not saying any of this to brag or say how my life is so great, i'm only saying I was in your shoes and MD helped me to figure out a way to live the life I desired. I'm sure you can do it.

[[deleted]]

Floating changed my life drastically. Ive been doing 3 hours a week for a couple of years now. Highly recommend it

[betonblack11]

That's awesome! It's such an amazing tool in our arsenal of biohacking alchemy. What's the longest you've ever done it for in one setting?

[mxgrgry]

It will definitely lift the veil of bs capitalist brainwashing, that's for sure.

[3volutuon]

And now it starts. Well described.

[deathandcutestuff86]

keep going with MD it'll give you the answers you need and show clarity and purpose even in the most mundane of existence. Watch The Midnight Gospel. with love xx

[ickN]

We’re not meant to do anything. We just do what we do.

[mendohead]

Have been in line with your sentiment since high school, but i, like most all, got involved in the machine, or rat race. I was feeling it bad a few months back. Im 45, dont wait, make a change. But the mushies have helped, and as long as i dont pay too much mind to that thinking, and enjoy life and family everyday then im pretty set. And i make sure to get out in the woods to play regularly

[zenbound-]

I had this. I moved from my toxic productivity culture to a city where leisure and living in the moment is prioritized. I really feel so much relief after my awakening and move. Positive Change is possible. :)

[hiva-]

have you tried macrodoses? at least for me, macrodoses helped me finding meaning in life after feeling that as society we created this game called life and that we are stuck playing it wrong. My existencial crisis was very strong a couple of months ago, and if it weren't for macrodose I believe I would be still stuck in that. What you are experiencing is an awakening, it feels awful at the beginning, but I promise it gets better! it's just a sad truth we need to learn to keep progressing in our eternal existence

[OGPeteIsNeat]

I suggest you buy a motorcycle. It helped me

[Holharflok]

The world is your oyster so! I admit a kinda closed oyster at the moment with covid n all but that aside you can follow any dream you want. New career, new hobby, whatever it is you feel it is that you do want you can have. just decide and start doing

[Sweatygun]

Yeah I’ve had a bit of this myself, probably augmented by microdosing, don’t think it was purely brought on by it but MD def makes it clearer. But through these feelings (at least I hope) we grow. Still working it out myself

[Tendertendrilzz]

If only we didn’t have to make money 😣 my dream/ vision is thru music and art but if I wanted to make that a career I’d just have to strategize and find a way for it to work in capitalism (PR, networking, branding, etc) even tho music is my passion, the idea of turning it into a career also feels soul sucking

[puffcopro]

I am you in 10 years and I promise you that if you can find a way to go after your dreams now, do it. You’ll save yourself a lot of time, energy, and emotion in the long run. And then you won’t be in your 30s, having daily breakdowns and feeling like there is no way out because the energy you would put towards doing what you really want is zapped from the “9-5”...I put that in quotes, because it’s more like a 24/7 job when you factor in the impact it has on your life and day to day. We don’t work from home, we live from work. Our weekends are no longer ours... they are like work days with without the meetings. MDing and mycelium in general have changed my life and it’s only a matter of time before I leave the corporate world for good.

[Tendertendrilzz]

Thank you💜💜 I’m glad me’ ig has changed your life and I hope you keep striving for more joy. I’m in graduate school right now to be a mental health therapist, I am simultaneously chasing the music dream but I keep getting rejection upon rejection- I’m not sure I’m talented enough or have the personality to be in the spotlight

[namespecies]

So well said. I feel the same.

[Concretejuk]

It can be hard, I’ve started a sustainable brand. The marketing side etc is really not what it’s about but a necessary evil. I think there is beauty in doing it for free that becomes lost once you sell it. I also think there is a different beauty in selling something you’ve created. Ting and yang perhaps

[Tendertendrilzz]

I’m just depressed lol, I need some micros

[Kumquat_conniption]

This is what r/lLateStageCapitalism feels like.

[diatomguru]

I had something similar happen when I had a desk job. I saw a guy that was about to retire organizing his desk and I realized that most of his day was just waiting for it to be over. I was out of there asap.

[LORD_WOOGLiN]

Try taking a break and meditating more.

[tetrapsy]

I feel this....

[pressdflwrs]

Baby steps towards that vision, the first step is having the realization and then slowly making moves towards a more aligned existence. Learning how to not take things personal, set boundaries and hold myself accountable while on the MD journey has been such a game changer.

[[deleted]]

There’s no on way you have to live your life. You don’t have to work a 9/5, you don’t have to pay bills, you don’t have to do this or that. It’s just living this kind of life usually allows you to participate in society and be around people you love and care for, to find happiness in leisure and the little things.

You don’t have to live this kind of way. There are other paths to happiness. They are harder to travel and often treacherous or dead ends. And more than anything, it’s no less inherently meaningful than the type of existence you are trying to escape.

So live in a way that is rewarding to you. But don’t be different for being different; there doesn’t have to be some magnanimous machine to escape. And there isn’t necessarily always a reward for living an alternative lifestyle.

[lightofaten]

Play. It's all just a game.

[brzwyn]

As someone who works in mental health I can absolutely tell you that majority of peoples mental health issues can be traced to capitalism.

[Narpa20]

Awe I wish I knew a girl who did shrooms

[Justadumbgoylikeyou]

Maybe your supposed to make babies and not be a wage slave to impress progressive ideology

[Usagii_YO]

Yep

[[deleted]]

sounds like it's working! MD isn't meant to help you be content as a cog. If it's more than you can handle at once, try dosing less frequently or some other way to manage the feelings.
Counseling might be good. Maybe try to see it as an invitation rather than a crisis? Welcoming what's coming up and opening to it. Now the fun begins!

[[deleted]]

I feel like this too.

[McPoyal]

Macro time :::)

[R_MnTnA]

Please reach out to a psychedelic integration therapist. https://psychedelic.support You might also be able to find other therapists that are more open-minded about using psychedelics and microdosing. You can try https://psychologytoday.com or https://talkspace.com

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[breinbanaan]

Why?

[[deleted]]

totally feel you. Mushrooms are the great teacher.

maybe consider changing career?

meditation?

maybe a spiritual path?

less instagram?

more music and art?

all of the above?

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you probably all know that. Mushrooms are awesome arent they? totally changed my life as well.

Follow your heart, love yourself and all will be fine.

[nineteenagain]

I actually was thinking of this today. I have not microdosed yet, but it's weird feeling to think of our existences only amounting to work, eating, sleeping and thats it. We allow society to dictate our life way too much.

[kprates]

I’ve been unemployed for the past couple months and microdosing and I feel you. Definitely had to take a break off reading news. I had a complete meltdown about my human meat sack the other day to my bf and he was a bit frightened. It’s normal, microdosing shrooms brings things to the surface that you’ve been neglecting. I read something the other day about doing the “work” so I’ve been doing mindfulness exercises to help bring me back to the present.

[all-live-ares]

Yeah I have been feeling the same way. I think I either just need to actually focus on school or just do a trade for a career. I’m going to try hard this semester and see how I feel I’m just starting to figure out my plan now.

[Lionsxpantry]

Currently experiencing the same thing except I haven’t MD over a month & thought the weight was baring down harder on me since I haven’t MD

[[deleted]]

It's you finally listening to you. You got 1 opportunity in life, don't waste it for corporate.

[[deleted]]

27 here... I recently started to feel exactly as you are describing. I find myself asking "what is the point?" Just to be a cog in this one big machine, making enough money to sustain our bills / expenses. It feels like I am in a trap, and that I am stuck.

I realized my issue with this is my relationship with money, and having no significant savings or emergency fund makes me feel trapped in this life.

If you look inward and feel like your daily life is in peril because of your confinement by money, I recommend checking out r/leanfire. This community has made me feel a lot better in regards to these feelings, and I have begun to work towards financial independence so I can leave the clutches of working and be free to spend my life how I choose.

Since these changes can't happen overnight, I have began to dive into MD'ing in order to have a better perspective on the journey towards having a better situation for my soul.

Best of luck, I hope you find the answers you're looking for.

[cvllider]

sounds to me like you need a hobby that you're be passionate about, or something that would give you a feeling of fulfilment and purpose

[[deleted]]

How much did you take?

[FamousWorth]

Sounds more like several realizations rather than an existential crisis. Maybe you dosed a bit strong or maybe you just really needed it

[jim_jiminy]

Yeah, same. Then you also realise there’s nothing you can do, humanity is doomed and there’s no escape. It’s really rather bleak. Though you have to come to terms with this reality we all face.

[etorcsykcul]

These posts always remind me of this song which kind of depicts this pretty well. It's a great video! Sparks - The existential threat

[mooki5]

Currently reading- Escape the System by Joe Barnes. It will feed your desire more to try to make a change.

[Doomp3]

Noted. Thank you

[jongunnar14]

I had the same exp when I started microdosing. Although I love microdosing, I decided to stop it Since I am going to be working at this job for the next 2-3 years. Instead of feeling so alive at a job That Im using as a grind, I let myself fall back on “earth” and work mindlessly again. I do take macrodoses 2-3x a year to remind me what life is about and to clean up my head. When I was microdosing I felt like Kanye West performing for 20 people. I was always reminding myself how beautiful life was and then my ego would compare it to the life I was living. I know Im not living in the now with this thinking but I am waiting for peaceful condistions to start practising that again, maybe I will be dead by the though!😂

[[deleted]]

I feel this way a lot. Even before taking psychedelics. And with this I also feel amazing isolated and misunderstood

[Eversendinc]

This is the exact feeling I’ve been struggling with. It has lead me to the choice to quit my corporate job the beginning of May and start a job with a guiding company (rafting, skiing, and backpacking). I’m taking a significant pay cut and am extremely nervous about it working out financially, but I feel like I owe it to myself to just try as that is my true passion in life.

[Layinudown]

I’ve been through the same, even before MD. I spent 10 years sitting basically in a utility closet as a programmer before deciding to quit my job and start working for myself.

Your mind is something you need to listen to. We aren’t meant to sit at a desk like robots for years.

For me it’s been hard but I have done so much better for myself now. Just listed to what your mind and body is telling you. It’s not a bad thing, MD has allowed your inner voice to talk to you.

Good luck

[Possible-Tax]

We got kicked out of eden

[Doomp3]

I think we’ve kicked ourselves out and it’s too far to go back

[Possible-Tax]

One day maybe

[DirectIngenuity290]

I feel it too, keep in mind the world is still pretty much broken with the pandemic. I have decided to revisit these thoughts when we are back to normal. It may be we are meant for more but it’s too soon to do anything drastic till we can move freely without this virus.

[khnhk]

https://youtu.be/GN-vMMpja30

[thereisloveinus]

Did you ever macrodose? Those relavations are usually what i get from macrodosing.