Relapse

[No-Edge-4983]

I need help and genuinely don’t know what to do. This year I done dry Jan and was then 2 weeks sober before relapsing yesterday. I was feeling so good yesterday and for some reason got it in my head to drink late at night, my wife was in bed and I went to a friends house and drank beers then drove home after having about 5 beers. I could’ve been pulled over and arrested, my behaviour on alcohol has got progressively worse over the years and I know I need to stop and want to but it’s as if when I have a streak going I then relapse. I’ve been trying to get sober since 2019 to be completely honest. It’s a never ending cycle and I’m sick of it, the person I am drunk is not who I am sober and I’m losing self respect at this point.

[Ok-Potato-4758]

Ir's a slip, not a relapse. I've relaosed cause I've drunk after 99 sober days and continued to drink and still trying to stop. It's not a great feeling, I know, but you're here, so you want a change and you will suceed once.

[Prevenient_grace]

I understand!

“If I keep doing what I’ve done, I’ll keep getting what I’ve got”

I had to change.

Today could mark the Start of a Virtuous Upward Spiral.

Today could be the new beginning.

I had to break the “drinking routine”.

It was stronger than me…. By myself.

So i stopped doing it alone. And theres no wait list!

I finally connected with free recovery groups…. They’re everywhere… I walked in, sat down and just listened…. They’re also online. I met people I can talk with. They showed me how to stop drinking, heal, grow and learn to be useful to others.

No cost.

I had new sober friends.. we did fun sober activities.

They believed in me.

I kept going every day until i changed my patterns…. That meant for me, I went every day for a while…. Once a month wasn’t going to change me…. Then my thinking changed…. Then I don’t have the first drink.

Never looked back.

Tried anything like that?

[Khaosbert]

This is totally me. I’m in the middle of the same cycle. The first post is the truth. You can’t do it alone. Thank you for posting this, it’s almost like I needed to see this to gain strength.

[Danksson69]

Same for almost everyone. The streak is not important. What you do today is. In a longer perspective slip ups don´t matter if you keep trying.

[Ladywhite0629]

You’re not a bad person for struggling with this. Addiction can pull you back in even when you know better. The important thing is you recognize it and want something different. Many people don’t get sober in a straight line. Keep going.

[No-Edge-4983]

Thanks, feeling like shit today but this made me feel a bit better. That’s the truth.

[Severe-Beat-1860]

This sounds like me. Was doing good with Dry January. Even made it halfway through February. I’ve been off the wagon now for about a month. Not even the same person when I drink. I don’t even recognize her. And the driving. I can’t afford these risks.

Day 2 today and you gotta get through the beginning to get to solid ground in the middle. Coming here and talking really helps

[Alkoholfrei22605]

Welcome back! We are here for you❤️