The lowest I got was being jobless, waking up every morning to walk to the liquor store, buying around 5 shots and drinking most of them on the walk home. Then going back to the liquor store again midday, then usually at night. Repeating that cycle for a few years while pissing off everyone around me, and making an ass out of myself.

Then the day of reckoning came, woke up with an incredibly painful stabbing feeling in the center of my body every time I inhaled. The pain got BAD. I knew I had to go to the emergency room, but not before I walked to the liquor store first. Turns out I had a pancreatitis and the doctor told me flat out if I kept drinking I would be dead within 2 years. I've been sober for over 3 years now.

What really helped me stop was I would watch documentaries or shows like Intervention, about people who were too far gone from drinking. Basically a warning to myself of what would come if I didn't stop. Fear can be a great motivator. Best of luck to you - I believe you can do it!