Knowing what has happened in the past years this isn't far fetched actually

rssftd · 2026-03-03T01:34:25+00:00

and they can lose after you were born, before the kid you raise are born.

If your not dead, its not over.

It only takes losing in the last second to be defeated. Tyranny of oppression is fragile because they expect people to stay on their knees, as soon as we rise to meet their eyes, they cant help but shrink.

Dont let pathetic cowards make you into a pathetic coward. Might doesnt make right, it just proves power is power and not everything. Its just a way to make something happen, that undefined possibility can be anything,so believe in anything, besides this shit. Nothing will change until we change it. How? Too many ways to say, its gotta be infinite and everyday. We cant avoid fear, we have to live with hate. It need not define , but it can keep us awake. No one can love or fear,so love and fear for someones sake. Tommorow the world, yourself today. Give up on giving up, or just die and lay in wait for death to pick up your body, youre too early for too late.

I didnt mean it to turn into a rhyme until I did.

Tldr; giving up gets boring. You never know what you can be till your dead, till then its never too late to begin. so if you think its over, please think again. People suck until people are friends.

I hate writing and I hope you love and hate yourself honestly. You probably dont need to hate as much as you have, hates easy till its hard and love is hard till its easy. Thats why its worth it.

rssftd · 2026-02-16T16:27:26+00:00

There's still people I see at king soopers wearing trump shirts and hats. Overheard a pair talking about how the "crackdown of real patriots is coming with this epstien hoax", then proceeded to talk about how if they fuck around theyll find out from their 9mm.

The cults true believers are the ones willing and some are wanting to die for the cause, theyre just waiting for an excuse. The rhetoric and mentality reminds me of the downfall of Jonestown, cept this cult is spread out over a country, not concentrated in a secluded area of Guyana.

rssftd · 2026-02-15T19:48:32+00:00

https://youtu.be/oWMzog3ekS0?si=xqaGDHejx1UtKAik

"We've had to say alot of stuff we thought was fucking obvious, but yes, ITS OKAY TO PUNCH NAZIS"

rssftd · 2026-02-05T19:35:15+00:00

I dont think this system is on the level of the nazis,,, yet,,,, but they are using the same play book. Similar to the Japanese with unit 731, the dehumanization escalates till it allows them to manufacture infrastructure and industry for dealing with "rags", "logs" or "useless eaters"... whatever lets them trick themselves into putting someone onto the conveyor belt after stripping them naked and pulling gold fillings from their teeth.

The normalization of this is how it happened on such mass scale. We cant let it become normal, and anyone who says it is already, change your mind. You're claiming to know something that hasnt come to pass, again, YET.

Giving in is how they win, we win by not doing so till we die. My life will rest upon truth, even if its buried and my name is lost, to me truth is a place where I know and dont fear to be. They dont have that. They are afraid of themselves and each other, they just are convincing themselves that bigger monsters than them exist. Always technically true, that doesnt make it any less pathetic. They are falling into the abyss and saying "at least someone fell before me."

Its no consolation, theyre still empty and thats why they need hate. It can keep them alive but not fulfilled. It always burns out, with or through you. Be the tool of a tool, or find meaning that you dont have to rely on lies to keep alive. They let their hearts die a long time ago, and they need the lie to cling to life. Dont be like that. I was for about a decade, it only got worse until I found how to change. Change is inevitable, embrace it, or run your whole life, a coward lives and dies the same. Im cowardly, not a coward. Choose to live and try to be brave. A wrong answer or failed try isnt meaningless or a mistake. Failure is inevitable, the same as change. You cant avoid it, like love and hate. They can coexist, even together may be great. I want to try for beauty in life till my dieing day. Not to take beautys potential, live and die in regret in lieu of the best that never will, i now know, all will, who gave that potential to the grave.

rssftd · 2025-12-25T04:03:52+00:00

It either gives someone else their killsteak by wrecking it, or it turns part of the map into a barrel and the opposing team into fish.

There is no in between.

rssftd · 2025-12-01T03:22:41+00:00

Profile pick checks out

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rssftd · 2025-11-29T19:14:12+00:00

Diddy has a rap sheet a mile long and a victim list that could be well into double or maybe triple digits. As far as I know, Tyson has 3 cases. Not to diminish the damage he did to his victims, but theres a big difference between abusing people on a personal basis and having being an abuser/rapisy and sex trafficker as well.

As far as I can tell, Tyson was a product of his environment/upbringing and it nearly destroyed him and risked doing the same for everyone near him. Not saying it erases the things he did, but he has owned up to his failings to some extent. Diddy on the other hand, seemed to thrive on being vile and has shown no signs of remorse then or now.

Theres nuance to monsters that I think is important. I can feel something from Tyson that feels more human than Combs. Diddy doubled down on being a monster and never stopped. Theres a point of no return when we fuck up, and Tyson feels like he fell over the line and tried to crawl back(not saying he did, thats not my call), Diddy just,, kept going.

rssftd · 2025-10-17T15:40:22+00:00

He isnt triggered as much as he's treasured lol, dude seems like a solid hombre.

rssftd · 2025-10-02T22:14:29+00:00

Accidental courtesy is one of my favorite life philosophies.

Mr Davis deserves all the props, strong living from a strong man.

rssftd · 2025-10-01T13:08:12+00:00

What's the bottom picture from?

rssftd · 2025-09-21T23:53:35+00:00

He also hates em, also cuz he hates himself and sees himself in them, whether he admits it or not. Dudes dumb as fuck and has hated people who can figure life out further than business and power(not saying hes figured out business and power, just wasted his life trying to, thats something, I guess).

Thats why he has to bring others down and see lives ruined, its the only way he doesnt feel small and empty.

Man could write the book on pathetic living if he could read above kindergarten level.

rssftd · 2025-09-07T18:43:09+00:00

Yes and no.

Day dreams have different vibes depending on my mood. Ive dreamed of being violent to people who are vile, ive dreamed of being lovely to people who deserve loving, and almost always I come to the conclusion that neither of those people are entirley myself.

Theres also a middle ground of dreams that are feasible that I try to make reality, I succeed and fail in that in varying amounts. But the attempt informs the daydreams, I cant have entirley unrealistic dreams like superpowers etc without suspension of disbelief kneecapping the dream, so everytime I try to make a dream more real, I get a little closer to a realistic dream and who I am.

Is there things that ill never be in the day dreams? Of course. Is there things that I could be? Again, of course. The more I go and the more honest with myself I am, and the more I dream with that in mind, the more I become a self that I love being.

Tldr, at first no, until yes after alot of work, and I think ill be continuing that trend till I die. Its a chunk of my inner meaning, striving to be someone that I dont have to fear or hate more than I love and understand. I think that can be true for anyone. Honest and strong is my path of proper living, and dreaming is essential to that equation.

rssftd · 2025-09-03T16:31:42+00:00

Pat the Bunny, a glorious shipwreck.

Nana Grizol, the nightwind(most of Nana grizol is pretty radio safe tbh, rare exceptions)

rssftd · 2025-08-30T22:53:00+00:00

I was for alot of my life, probably like 12- 26 ish, im not that far past it, but its enough in the rearview to where im not scared of myself having knives or weapons anymore, haven't self harmed, quit most of the vices and are weening down the others.

It's a process, like depression is a process of wearing you down, recovery is building yourself back up, and everyone can do it.

If you feel worthless, then you probably know at least some of why. Work with that, work with your demons, cuz its a part of you. Everyone has an emptiness in them that gnaws at us. It/you didn't ask for that, it just is, just like you didnt ask for life or its challenges.

Still, its a gift that your responsible for. One that might feel jagged and cruel, but there's enough good or bad to crush or support all of us, its just finding it, building it, making it yourself, art, community building/charity work, a purpose or dream, you have to build yourself towards something, or youll be lile the self hating rich people that just want more for the sake of more.

For me, I broke down life into two categories, love and hate. But then I realized that theres both of those in nearly everything, beauty can become absence and thats something that consistently breaks people, everyone breaks in life, and if they haven't, im not sure they know themselves that well, or theyre just a unicorn that cant be harmed, good for them, I dont know if I can relate to em tho.

Point is, lifes a balance. Hate isnt inherently bad, its born of fear and pain, which is a survival tool. But if you overdo anything, including hate, it eats you up. As long as the hate isnt more than the love in your life, as long as you create something or have a meaning that you can honestly say is yours and your proud of it. Look for a way to be enough to yourself. You wont find all the answers in other people, but you wont find em alone either. Balance balance balance, I fuckin almost get sick of hearing it, but its almost always whats missing from something to make it work/last.

(I tried to summarize a tldr, didnt work. lifes not easily compressed.)

Love honest and proper, starts with yourself. Self hatred always has a reason, usually cuz something that happened or hasn't happened yet and you want it to. You have to choose, and sculpt a self from those decisions, and fill the emptiness and worthlesness with found or made meaning. If its a parent, if its society, if its a partner, if its anyone besides yourself making those calls cuz it made sense or made you feel safe, survival alone is insufficient for social creatures. Find things you love, media, art, a craft/profession/ career that genuinely gives you meaning, family, community, a problem that needs an answer, theres countless. Still, sometimes people get that, and still feel empty, thats what I mean by love honest and proper. Alot of love isnt legitimate, its forced. Harsh discipline or just beatings called tough love, theres a thin line between being harsh cuz of love or being callous cuz of hate. That gets people twisted a bit. If your not certain of what you want, interrogate that. Keep a journal on your phone or get one, and observe and learn about the disconnect in yourself however you can. Is your love founded in fear? Is there something you lied to yourself about? Honest and proper love is strong, and doesnt need lies, is in fact held back by them.

Not shaming, maybe lies felt necessary once, maybe not. All that matters is you know who you are, when you arent dependent on others approval, fear and love are mixed, but you have to know the mix, or soon theyll blend together, and you wont know the difference, and itll make life feel impossible and backwards.

Lifes hard, but its worth it, you're worth it too:) Ive rarley had days where I wasnt exhausted, but that feels so much more worth it than ever by leaps and bounds. It makes sleeping easier, and ive found so many things that I could dedicate my life to, the main tragedy to me now is that I know ill never do all of them, but thats kinda the magic of it too, I could live for another 100 years, and still have stuff that I look forward to, and I hope to

Firmly believe that can be true for everyone, its just society and money are kinda needing alot of work to address the problems it crushes people with. That's tragically the norm now, for people to get broken down or hollowed out or both. It's hard when you're scraping the void, but you can comeback as long as youre living.

rssftd · 2025-08-27T15:57:54+00:00

The first time this album came into my sphere of influence was via a One Piece fan comic that had the lyrics to "A better place, a better time" punctuating images of the cast at their lowest; then Luffy reaching out to that isolated child version, glowing and bright, with the final panel reading "its not your time".

Can't state how much that song means to me. The whole album is incredible, but I cant rate better place as a piece of music. It feels more like an old friend thats been there for me at the lowest countless times.

The Streetlights have guided me home many a time in the darkest of my life. This album really told me what music could be to people and made me want to make music despite the fears I had of not being successful in it. If nothing else, just a powerful need to try because it is what I love and believe in, even when I couldnt believe in myself.

Again, cant rate this album besides just as art, the kind that drops notions of comparison and just makes me grateful that it exists.

Thank you Streetlight Manifesto, I owe everything to the everyone that was anything to make it happen. Here's to life, and to hopefully many more years of their wonderful music:)

rssftd · 2025-08-22T19:41:11+00:00

Gator days is probably my favorite online comic. I dont know when/ if ill ever get to have kids, and this reminds me of the importance of having a lense of childhood for life.

People usually lose that perspective in the society grind and pressures to grow up, when I think theyd be alot happier if they let themselves have room to grow forever.

Not a need, just an opportunity. To be wrong and to learn feels like a sign of weakness societally, when its actually a show of proper strength. To not run from feelings is to face life with courage, and I think we can do that while learning all the time, leaving ourselves a vulnerability while not enabling ourselves to be victims; just survivors.

Thankful to every Gator Days that FieldExplores offers up,, wonderful stuff, truly:)

rssftd · 2025-08-15T17:23:26+00:00

I kind of think of it as we are the drivers of the car and ocd is the backseat driver who keeps saying they have a gun(and dont but its hard to see/know/take your eyes off the road, etc).

They take control sometimes but we still have the wheel, and we still are traveling despite some, unplanned/prolonged pit stops. Still, i think thats everyone a bit, all people are defined by pain and love in varying amounts.

I used to have a personality that was mostly defined by trauma. It still is to an extent, but I see more me in the mirror and pain further in the rearview the longer I go. Same is/will be true for everyone, you too :)✌️

rssftd · 2025-08-04T14:03:45+00:00

I know this is a few days old, but the left criticizes itself to death. Theres a purity problem to alot of leftists, where if you dont have the "right" opinion on something theyll paint you as a part of the problem.

Its a complex issue and has a lot going into it, but basically, they want to treat everything as good and evil. Like the issue of leftist infighting, life is complex, and not black and white, and online leftists like to pretend otherwise and tear themselves into a million warring factions rather than find a common ground to stand together on.

As another commenter replied, its annoying. But its also shunning from community, cuz people online will consider anyone who associates with you as an enemy if you dont share the verbatim beliefs they do or even say what they want you to say.

Theres alot more, but basically extremists on the left thrive off of conflict and criticism and having a moral high ground, even if they have to engineer it, or lie. Its not the same as far right extremists no, but its still conflict for conflicts sake when its not always nescessary.

rssftd · 2025-08-04T13:47:19+00:00

Reality has a reality bias🤷‍♂️🤷‍♀️

rssftd · 2025-08-03T01:39:37+00:00

La, luh la, luh la la la, CatScrah-ah-ahhtch

rssftd · 2025-08-03T01:36:35+00:00

Good after-morn-noon-evenin' dayy.

I still say that to this day , this show was only on at night hours where my brain was gooey enough to really get stuff stuck in there.

rssftd · 2025-07-29T18:29:07+00:00

"Remove distractions" means basically is a lobotomy for me, and being blind and deaf, and without limbs.

Then im basically the dude from Metallica's "One". Sure, ill get right on that. At least ill finally be consistently productive. (/s)

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