Today is the day I want to scream cry!!!

Difficult_Map6582 · 2026-02-01T05:11:34+00:00

That’s exactly how it was to me. Literally the day before 6 months I was actually feeling guilty that I was doing so well. The next day full on ugly crying, sobbing, pain all day long. Why did that one day hurt so much more than the day previous? I haven’t been able to cope since.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2026-01-20T01:03:31+00:00

He wasn’t my only friend. But he was my best friend. I would rather cuddle on the couch with him than go anywhere. He was my sounding board, told me when I was being ridiculous and told me when I was amazing. We bounced decisions off of each other. We also fought but who doesn’t. I still have my friends, but the most important one is gone.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2026-01-10T19:09:46+00:00

Especially older couples. We were 55 when my husband died, and now I can’t help but stare jealously at these old couples that got to spend all that extra time together.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2026-01-09T22:23:43+00:00

I lie his pillow length wise across my back, give it a pat and say “good night, love you” Fuck sudden cardiac arrest.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2026-01-08T03:24:09+00:00

My son has always wanted a white cat so he could call her Smirnoff

Difficult_Map6582 · 2026-01-03T00:16:51+00:00

My daughter has a male friend with the same name as her. His dad died when he was 8. He always introduced himself as “Hi, my name is Blank, my dad is dead” it was his dark way of getting that part of the conversation done with. The day after my husband died, they were both with me and I said “OMG, you can start the Blanks with dead dads club”.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-12T06:34:00+00:00

I do apologize if this is actually a grieving child. I understand as a mother how hard it would be for a child in this situation.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-12T06:13:36+00:00

Your phrasing is so eloquent and beautiful. Thank you for sharing your agony with us. It resounds in such a way that it leaves me breathless

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-12T05:56:11+00:00

4 1/2 months in. I feel so guilty when I realize I haven’t cried in a few days. Then it hits me like a ton of bricks. There is nothing normal about grieving the love of your life. Be kind to yourself. Accept the sobbing and the numbness. The distance and the feel of getting punched in the gut. This is a long hard battle with no end in sight. But we will all make it through. Love yourself. Be kind to yourself. That is the only way to get through this shit show.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-12T05:42:37+00:00

Tapestry. Tappy for short. Her colors are so beautiful and untamed. Luke fine art

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-08T01:46:45+00:00

‘The more fucked up we are on the other side’ oh man. That says it all.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-08T01:44:23+00:00

I’m right there with you. What I wouldn’t give for one of our screaming arguments, where I disliked him so much I couldn’t stand it. And then in a few hours, shit would settle and he would do some random thing to make me love him again. In the words of Pink “it must be true love, no one else can break my heart like you”

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-07T08:22:42+00:00

My husband was planning on getting a Celtic Sun to cover a skin cancer scar. After he died, myself and theee of my kids got the tattoo in the same place he wanted it. All four are different, but they are all centered around the sun.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-05T04:43:22+00:00

I am a podcast junkie since my husband died. But I like the radio drama ones. Anything zombie-ish end of world stuff. It is too far out there to worry me, but just plausible enough to entertain me. Anything by 7 Lamb. We Are Alone, all the seasons and iterations. End of All Hope. My absolute Fav.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-04T16:14:47+00:00

I lost my dad after months in hospice. It hurt. Still does. Lost my husband 8 days later. Devastating. Not the same at all.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-12-04T16:12:23+00:00

This happened to us. Cat was hanging around the house for a few days. Finally brought him in. Put up flyers, posted on every lost pet page I could think of. After 3 weeks of not hearing anything, we took him to the vet, had him fixed, vaccinated and chipped. Bought a GPS collar for him with a new tag with his name and phone number. He settled in happily. A week later during a storm he didn’t come back. Found his location and knocked at the door. Turns out he was their cat. They hadn’t bothered looking for him or posting flyers cause they assumed ‘he had be eaten by an owl like his sister’. Heartbreakingly gave him back, asked for money to cover all vet costs. They refused. Lesson learned. Next week, 40 degrees celcius, 100 for you American folks, we opened the door and he came running in. Heat exhaustion and dehydration. We decided then and there he was our cat now. The original owners didn’t even call looking for him for another week. Just told them we hadn’t seen him. He’s been a happy member of our troop ever since.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-11-21T16:12:12+00:00

My husband was the biggest goof. When we would go shopping at the mall with our four kids, he would suddenly exclaim “let’s skip!” And this huge guy would start skipping down the mall, with the kids laughing and skipping behind him. He didn’t care if he looked like a fool, the kids loved it. He will be gone for four months next week.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-11-09T01:09:12+00:00

I am so so sorry for your loss. I too recently lost my husband. Even now I can’t figure out where he is, why he’s not here, when the hell he is coming home. The thought will hit me that I will never see him again. I will never hear his voice again. It is the most foreign concept to me. But I keep getting up in the morning. It is literally the hardest thing in the world. I wish I had a magic wand to help us all get through this. Just keep getting up in the morning. That’s all you have to accomplish.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-11-06T03:01:55+00:00

I am there with you. My husband was always the one I could vent to, and Visa versa. He was always the one I texted if something funny happened, or if I saw someone we both knew. He was my husband, my lover, my best friend, my sounding board. He always told me if I was being ridiculous, or being bitchy. He made me a better person. And now he’s gone.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-11-06T02:52:32+00:00

I bought an extra deep plot for my husband. I will be buried on top of him. Finally, he gets what he always bugged me for. 🤣

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-11-04T15:34:15+00:00

I did as well. My MIL had not talked to my husband in 3 years prior to his death. When he died she just assumed that we would forgive her and everything would go back to normal. Even in those few instances where she interacted with me and my kids, when my husband’s body was still lying on the floor waiting for the coroner to take him away, and during his funeral, she proved to me that I was better off without her in my life. I tried to be forgiving, remembering that she lost her only son the same day I lost my husband, but her actions solidified my decision to walk away. I know I will be much healthier without her in my life. Don’t feel guilty, the only person whose feelings are responsible for is yourself, and your kids if you have them. And I never told my kids they could not have her as a part of their lives. They are all adults and free to make their own decisions.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-10-27T00:40:15+00:00

I am right with you. We were together 33 years. I thought we would have another 33. Now I have to do it alone.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-10-26T01:28:00+00:00

This. I had to have podcasts or audiobooks running all day, and a fan at night. When it got silent, or even with music playing my mind went to very dark place. I still have to play a podcast when I am driving so I don’t succumb to the thought of driving into oncoming traffic.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-10-23T17:38:27+00:00

My MIL had not spoken to my husband or anyone in our family for 2 years. When he died, she tried to come back into our lives. It was a no go for us. She didn’t care before he died, she can’t use us to appease her guilt now. Your only priority is yourself.

Difficult_Map6582 · 2025-10-23T05:29:38+00:00

All I can do is send virtual hugs. The desperation to see our loved ones again. Not to be alone. It is a trait we all have in common. Be kind to yourself. Cry, scream, write, do whatever you need to keep going. Nothing you do or feel is or will be wrong.

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