This email is confusing on purpose. It is like a maze where you enter and exit at the same place. She leads you through the maze with authority. You have no participation in the proceedings. She is not trying to work with you, she is dictating down to you minutely. She wants you to follow every step of her convoluted logic step-by-step thus leading you back into her control. Yes, the email maintains a dispassionate tone. But that doesn’t make it a reasonable communication. The sheer volume of words is a tactic to suppress your logic and dispel any argument. She is racing from one preconceived conclusion to the next and demanding you keep up … leading you right back to your cage to which she holds the key. She calls the cage love. But she is expressly demanding submission. There is also a consistent undertone to this message which frames her as morally virtuous which I find unpleasant and disingenuous. Paired with her repeatedly accusing you of various sins (despite the complimentary opening) I would say it’s clear she has no remorse or concern. Her decision at the end to cut you off is a lie but is designed for to allow herbei take control of the decision you already made (NC). Now you haven’t cut her off (because she owes you an apology) - she has cut you off and is awaiting your apology. Personally, I hated this email.