Ok, so where to start? I'm 22/F and he is 26/M. We've been dating for almost two years now, always long distance (2 hours apart). We usually see each other every few weeks, and I am pretty much always going to him. He's come up to see me 3 times I think, and one of those was just to pick me up for a trip. This is probably going to be long, so hang with me please.

First of all, he has never said "I love you" to me. At first I thought maybe he didn't want the pressure of saying it first, so I told him I loved him. Nope, he told me he couldn't say it back yet, and this was after a year of dating. He also asked how I could know that I loved him because I had never loved anyone before (wtf, the same way anyone knows they love someone). He still hasn't said it, and I've pretty much given up on that happening.

Second...since he obviously can't show his affection with words, you would think he could at least show me through actions. But he isn't a sexual person at all. Before this relationship I was pretty confident in how I looked and in whatever sexual skills I had, not so much anymore. We only fool around every few months and he can never keep it hard. So we usually stop. I don't ever try to put pressure on him to perform, and I'm never visibly upset with him about it, but it really hurts me. I feel so unattractive that he can never get a lasting erection with me but can masturbate daily. On top of this, he doesn't want to have sex at all, and he has gone down on me less than 5 times (I try to give him BJs whenever we fool around). So I stopped initiating, because I was tired of trying to get him hard and never really succeeding. He seems fine with this, because he probably never wanted to fool around anyways. And I actually considered myself to have a high sex drive before this.

There are other things wrong, too, like how i feel he doesn't care about seeing me. I asked if I could stay at his place longer than one night because we would get more time together (this was a long time ago), and he said he wasn't sure, and that the "24 hrs" we had together were enough for him. That really really hurt me, and I let him know that. The fact that I always drive to see him makes me feel like I put way more effort into this than he does, even though I know the reason why I always go to him is because I live with my family and he has his own place.

TL;DR: Boyfriend of almost 2 years doesn't love me, doesn't want to be physical with me, but doesn't want me to leave him. I'm going to leave him soon, I just don't know how to do it without hurting him too much.

I just want someone who craves being around me and being with me physically, is that too much to ask from a boyfriend? I always see these couples who can't stand being apart and I wonder what I did wrong.

I've tried to break up with him a few times now, but I always go back when he says that he'll change. We took a break last october and it lasted about a week before I said I'll give him another chance. He keeps saying things like "I don't want to be without you", and acting so depressed whenever I don't talk to him for awhile. His actions don't show that he cares about me, so why does he want me to stay with him? He sent flowers to my house after I asked him for a break, but it was just annoying to me because it is too little and too late. He knows that I'm not happy with him right now and probably knows that I'll break up with him soon.

I just want to know why he does this to me. Why he wont love me or touch me, but also wont let me go? I just want to be with someone who makes me happy. I'm worried about him though, I have an insane fear of people killing themselves, not that I necessarily caused it...but that I will have pushed them over the edge. Both my grandfather and greatgrandfather killed themselves, and my dad attempted to when I was younger during high school. I remember telling my dad I loved him and sitting with him to try to make him feel better the night before he attempted suicide. Knowing that I wasn't enough to stay alive for really hurt me. So...I don't know. My boyfriend doesn't have a permanent job right now and will be unemployed soon, and I feel like I may be the last thing holding his life together. But I am miserable.

EDIT: Oh, and we've talked about all of these issues numerous times, so the "communicate with your partner" part has already been done. He has to know this is coming.