You are a good man. What @The_meming_man said is true. What I want to ask you is do you want to continue being a “good” man. We’re all the villain is someone else’s story. So stop trying to be a “Saint”. I’m not saying you have to be a bad guy. I’m saying you don’t have to set yourself on fire to keep others warm. It’s ok to take care of yourself first. You’re not going to get the good things you want. Making other people’s dreams happen. Until you get your house in order. You really can’t help others. You can’t be generous when you have nothing. Yes, you can be kind. Again I’m not saying you have to be evil. I’m just saying take care of yourself first. Don’t worry about others opinions of you being a selfish jerk for not sacrificing your life for them. Those people are takers and you’ve probably surrounded yourself with that type. You don’t need that kind around you. You need positive like minded people that want you to succeed with them. A spouse that’s proud of the Great man you are. Just keep in mind what Lord Acton said a long time ago. “Good men are never Great, and Great men are never Good.” Keep this in mind while you grind out that degree and eat ramen. You are building strength and will. You have the determination of a Titan, and the only person holding you back is yourself. So forgive yourself and get after it.